Ashamed

[misguided ghost]

I need to write about what I just did. I need to get it out so it doesnt feel like such a secret. I now have the word "problem" carved into my wrist. I couldn't control my urge to cut. I had one of my bipolar episodes and it was soooo bad. I couldn't stop crying and I just wanted it to end...I knew cutting would calm me down. Thing is it only made me happy for a little bit. Now I just feel defeated and ashamed. I can't tell anyone cause I'd be in sooo much trouble. I dont know what to do! :confused:

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Know what u mean,afterwords I always get really ashamed and guilty. I hate it, but everyone has different ways of coping,and urs just happens to be one u need to stop,but its easier said then done,right? When I have an "episode" its the only thing I know I can turn to,its not as easy as just snapping back an elastic,or squeezing an icecube until my hand goes numb. When u have an episode is there anyone u can call? Maybe turn to a friend and ask if they can help u threw it? Go to a family member? Write,sketch,paint,shred paper,stab wood with a screw driver, blast music?

[misguided ghost]

I've never heard about the ice cub technique...I'm gonna try that next time I get an urge during an episode. You've been very helpful on both my posts. Thank You :)