zFletcher
July 25th, 2011, 01:00 PM
I don't know how to make a good starting point that leads on to what i really want to say, so i will just come right out and say what is on my mind.
First off, I'm 19 years old and i'm what i call, a "Confused Bi-Sexual" i think i am into boys then suddenly, i get turned off and am all only for girls and this rotates usually quite frequently... But anyway, There is this boy i was dating for 7 months and 5 days, we met over this website, Twitter. At first, we almost inseparable and now, we took each other out of our lives and he hates me and he lashes everything out on me, uses me as his dummy and his pillow, He sends me messages and blows up my phone telling me stuff he wants to do to me (not in a sexual way) and watch me bleed to my death... etc. I seem to be making myself sound like a horrible person or a bad date, but, i really have done NOTHING wrong to him. When he was flirting with every other boy or girl that was clearly hitting on him and wanting to talk privately where i won't hear or find anything out, to everyone saying i'm all this and that and saying how amazing i am, then 2 days later i find out it was all a lie and just pushing me out of the way to cheat on me with other people... I Looked past the wrongs he's done and for the ONE SINGLE WRONG i've done, it caused our relationship :( Everytime i stood up for myself he went off crying and making all these promises which he never once kept or held, just saying them for me to stop being so protective.. His only way of making it right in his mind, was to do something personal with me which i don't wanna mention on here, but, it was good.. and took away my stress from HIS WRONGS, but, ....... I haven't let go of him, I haven't forgotten about him, Haven't took him out of my life or anything.. I keep trying to at least become his friend again, but, everytime i contact him, he rages off and insults me, puts me down and abuses me. I just, don't know what to do or how to get over him, EVERYTHING i do, reminds me of HIM.
First off, I'm 19 years old and i'm what i call, a "Confused Bi-Sexual" i think i am into boys then suddenly, i get turned off and am all only for girls and this rotates usually quite frequently... But anyway, There is this boy i was dating for 7 months and 5 days, we met over this website, Twitter. At first, we almost inseparable and now, we took each other out of our lives and he hates me and he lashes everything out on me, uses me as his dummy and his pillow, He sends me messages and blows up my phone telling me stuff he wants to do to me (not in a sexual way) and watch me bleed to my death... etc. I seem to be making myself sound like a horrible person or a bad date, but, i really have done NOTHING wrong to him. When he was flirting with every other boy or girl that was clearly hitting on him and wanting to talk privately where i won't hear or find anything out, to everyone saying i'm all this and that and saying how amazing i am, then 2 days later i find out it was all a lie and just pushing me out of the way to cheat on me with other people... I Looked past the wrongs he's done and for the ONE SINGLE WRONG i've done, it caused our relationship :( Everytime i stood up for myself he went off crying and making all these promises which he never once kept or held, just saying them for me to stop being so protective.. His only way of making it right in his mind, was to do something personal with me which i don't wanna mention on here, but, it was good.. and took away my stress from HIS WRONGS, but, ....... I haven't let go of him, I haven't forgotten about him, Haven't took him out of my life or anything.. I keep trying to at least become his friend again, but, everytime i contact him, he rages off and insults me, puts me down and abuses me. I just, don't know what to do or how to get over him, EVERYTHING i do, reminds me of HIM.