Miserable

[HeartCoreHannah]

Yesterday started off so good. I didn't take my blades, I had NO urges to cut. I got to Warped Tour and in the first 15 minutes my entire day was made. I met Go Radio and got pictures with them. <3 Then I went and seen them and The Ready Set play. I almost caught their guitar pick, but some whore slapped it out of my hand. Anyways, I was on my way to go see Of Mice & Men and my chest started hurting, then out of no where I puked everywhere. I was so embarrassed. EMT's were coming up to me and everything. The medication I'm on it says in HUGE font "DO NOT BE IN SUN FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME." And it was 110 degrees out. I thought I was going to die. I finally layed down under a tree in the grass. Everytime I went to stand or sit up, everything went black and I got really dizzy. I ended up having to leave early. As soon as we drove away, I had awful urges to cut. I was so disgusted with myself. It was suppose to be an amazing cutting free day.. Guess what, it wasn't. When we got back to the hotel, I tore apart a pen sharpened it and cut. I'm so mad at myself.. Nobody would ever understand.

[Charlotte93]

I'm sooo sorry, that's horrable but you know it's okay to fall back into it what matters is getting back up and while i may not know exactly what it felt like i do get it, i was always mad at myself, still am but you just have to keep pushing forwerd thats what's important, the getting back up and trying again, email me any time, seriously i may not get to it for a few houres but im always here for you!!!!

[Travis Is Losing It]

I was actually at of mice and men when some girl threw up about 30 feet from me at warped friday. probably was you x.x But I'm sorry that happened and alot of people do understand what your going through. Cutting though is not the solution for it. I know it sounds kinda mean but you should look into therapy. I delt with cutting for years and was in Western Pennsyvanian psychiatric for a few months and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. It helped me quit cutting and burning. Try talking to someone right as you get the feeling to cut because it will cause to much damage to your body

[HeartCoreHannah]

No, I didn't throw up while they were playing. I threw up in the field, haha. But I am in therapy right now. And a couple months ago I was committed to Chest Nut Ridge. Once I was released, I went three weeks without cutting, then all of a sudden, my mom and got into a fight... And all my hard work was destroyed. And Charlotte thanks, so much. That really does mean lot. <3

[Travis Is Losing It]

Oh ok i know a few people puked at Black Veil Brides too lol. But continue with therapy because it really can help alot.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im sorry,I kinda know how u feel,to a point. My brother,his wife and little girl went with some family friends to this big event thing in toronto last summer. It was supposed to be fun and relaxing. Channon,my brothers wife,knew I wasnt eatting,and when I refused everything she offered,she started to cry. I felt like I ruined her whole day,and when we finally got back,i cut over and over out of guilt & frustration. We ended up leaving before their friends,and afew days later she put me in a hospital. I was torn. I knew I was hurting her,but I couldnt stop. U shouldnt feel bad,its not ur fault ur meds have that side effect,and when ur having fun,things slip ur mind,im sure ur family was just happy that u where okaii. Sometimes things dont work out as planned,but im sure u'll have alot more chances at happy,cut free days in the future,just try to keep ur head up and realize it was a bump in the long road to slowly stopping. I know u can do it. Try too look at the bright side,u had fun before hand,and hai,u met Go radio,thats pretty epic man : )

[HeartCoreHannah]

Travis, how was Black Veil Brides? I wanted to see them really bad. And I plan on with the therapy. :) Katt, I'm really sorry about what happened to you as well. Hopefully you and I will both get through this. It may take a while, but there has to be light at the end of the tunnel, right?

[Travis Is Losing It]

Amazinnnng.

[HeartCoreHannah]

I bet. If you have any pictures of them, could you send them to me? I love them! haha