i can still catch the 11 30 train...

[aussie_kid]

i can still catch the 11 30 train...not on it though...under it. Not sure if this is the right place to post it though, but um just not feeling too happy about life at the moment. Mostly family issues.
My birthday was over a month ago, from my family (siblings nd parents) a family of six including myself, all i got was 20 bucks from my brother, a blender! that had to be returned..pending new gift from mum, as well as some undies...lifes great :)

i know people are worse off, but in the world i live in, people actually care about other peoples birthdays!
It feels like my family dont even care, especially my mum, who i often argue with, could be something as small as the cereal that she buys to larger things such as a new dog etc. It seems she just doesnt give a f*ck anymore, i spent more on her mothers day present than she did on my birthday, and im 15! She asked about twice what i wanted for my birthday about a day or two before, just clothes and stuff, but no! undies. YAY!!

She doesnt care about my birthday or christmas, i got basically nothing for christmas, not to put christmas as a material gift giving episode, its just that she didnt put any thought or effort into it. The year before, SHE suggested, how about a new bike, christmas day...no bike...makes you feel real important, i ended up getting an ipod about a month after christmas.

Lifes not too great, and please, dont just say talk to them,im just not that type of person to open up my feelings to someone about something like that, i would seem like a stuck up, pushy, and according to my mum: annoyingly naggy as well!

[DerBear]

Gifts are not important are they you seem to me like you excpect more

like you said you spent more on mothers day than she did on you Bday is it really about the cost..Ok maybe she did not put much thought into your gifts at xmas or your Bday maybe they are having money troubles

Just be grateful for what you get and suck it up

To be honest this is going to sound harsh but out of all the reasons to commit sucide i have read this is the most stupid

worser things can happen beleive me

Gifts are only stuff and to be honest you do sound kinda naggy and a bit ungrateful

you never know your parents may have not got a lot of money

also its hard to shop for a boys clothes even though she knows what you ware thats why she got you underwear as you can basiclly never go wrong with it

[Ambrosia]

As stated above, gifts are not important in life. Basically, you're experiencing birthdays and Christmases the way you will once you leave the house as an adult. Most adults do not get presents the way younger people to, as these gifts are mainly kept for the children. Believe it or not there are lots of families whom do not get many (if any) gifts on their Birthday, or on assorted holidays such as Christmas. They may be too poor, and have grown up that way, and know nothing more but the new socks they get or the new hat. Some religions don't even celebrate these holidays! My cousin, who is a (J word something?) Witness does not believe in celebrating Birthdays, or Christmases with presents.

Perhaps your family has hit a financial bump and your mother just doesn't want you to know because she doesn't want to bother your young mind with it. We had one very sad Christmas here a few years ago. Our family went bankrupt and soon after we had a very powerful Hurricane hit us dead on, destroying everything we had growing to make us money for the rest of the year. We had socks for Christmas. Lots and lots of socks...Have you considered this to be the case?

You say you do not want to talk to them about it, but that is honestly something you should take into consideration for doing. Confronting your mother might help, or writing her a letter. Just try not to come off as an "annoying nagging kid".

But yes, try and look forward. Once your older and get a job you won't have to rely on your family to get you gifts at any given time, you can just go out and buy your own!

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I understand how u feel. My mom buys amillion things for other people,and throws shit together for me. But gifts arent that importent,money can be tight,and hoildays are more for kids then anything. Just because she didnt buy u what u wanted doesnt mean she doesnt care about u,she prob just wants u to stand on ur own bc ur getting older. Throwing urself under a bus wont do anything but destroy ur family. Life cant get any better if ur dead. And if ur depressed I know ur thinking can get altered,and the truth twisted. I know u said u didnt want anyone to say,just talk to them but how will u ever know their side of the story if u dont? U could write a email or letter if u didnt wanna talk them in person. Or talk to someone else about ur feelings,like a therapist,thoughts of suicide show ur hurting inside,and maybe someone could help u with getting it resolved

[DJZS]

It seems by your post that there are other things that are bothering you. I think you need to talk about some things. Im always here if you'd like to talk, and my contact info is on my profile.

[Joshh97]

Times are hard...

[aussie_kid]

Just be grateful for what you get and suck it up

To be honest this is going to sound harsh but out of all the reasons to commit sucide i have read this is the most stupid

worser things can happen beleive me

Gifts are only stuff and to be honest you do sound kinda naggy and a bit ungrateful



I think it was just a passing "mood" of depression, and i appreciate your post, but belittling someones situation in which they are contemplating suicide would in NO WAY help them to try and get over the problem. I couldn't actually care less about the present, as it goes.."its the thought that counts" FYI, money isnt a problem, but if i really was contemplating suicide and you said "your problem is stupid" and also calling someone naggy and ungrateful would only exacerbate the problem

[DerBear]

I think it was just a passing "mood" of depression, and i appreciate your post, but belittling someones situation in which they are contemplating suicide would in NO WAY help them to try and get over the problem. I couldn't actually care less about the present, as it goes.."its the thought that counts" FYI, money isnt a problem, but if i really was contemplating suicide and you said "your problem is stupid" and also calling someone naggy and ungrateful would only exacerbate the problem

Someone who is thinking suicide does not needc a nice cuddle and pat on the back for luck ect they need a firm talking to and slap back into the real world...i have never been one to say to someone "aww poor you i know how you feel i once considered suicide try this and that" No they need to be told whats what and thats what i did in your case

p.s it takes a lot to cause one self pain and i did not think u would go through with it anyway

[allsoulsareblack]

no need to kill ureself i got jack shit of my perents for my birthday and it was my 18th (big deal in england) not even a card or a happy birthday so dont go in front of a train its not worth it