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[rissa-_-]

okay, so today my sister, mom, and mom's friend came to go swimming with us. we first had to go to walmart for a canopy? and my sister was saying she felt like throwing up. my mom ignored her complaining, and my sister and i both were crying in the store. my mom dosn't care! when she's with her friend it only involves just my mom and her friend, rose. it feels like i have to take care of my sister, miranda, when my mom isn't. for the last few days i have this idea that i'm playing house, but i'm the mom and my mom is me.

my mom use to drink a lot, but that was before miranda and i were born. when my mom's with rose i think she'll get drunk and miranda and i'll go to child services. i was ALMOST sent there because of my dad. i fear i won't like my mom anymore because of her stupid decisions.

but back to going swimming. the whole time everyone was staring at me. like i had a big zit on my face (which i don't haha) and eversince i feel really insecure about my beauty and body. . .

[SDRYC]

If your mother doesn't drink, you don't have to be worried about it, just try to be sure she'll not do it. You really need to be strong, and accept you're doing mom's paper, sadly you really need to take care of your family.
If you can, you should talk to your mom, tell her what you feel, communication is very important in this case.

You don't have to feel insecure about your beauty and body, if you said that you don't have any zit or something that they look at, don't worry, just try to talk to them and ask what do they were looking at... :)