Paranoia?

[screamtobeheard]

When I was little...like, as far back as I can remember (which is pretty far) I was always really, really afraid that everywhere I went there would be someone hiding, just waiting to kill me. I legitimately checked every corner of a room, ran away from windows at night, checked the ceiling, behind the shower, everywhere. And in bed, I'd cover my head with a blanket, leaving just a tiny hole because I was afraid I'd suffocate otherwise. And even today, I'm afraid to look in a mirror, especially at night, because I'm terrified I'm going to see someone waiting to murder me. I don't know why, I just am. At night, I won't look in a mirror. And if I do by mistake, I run and hide under my covers. I also used to always think my bones were broken or I was injured, even if I hadn't done anything to myself. And I was always dying of cancer or whatever disease I knew about. And I'm still like that to an extent, but now I can control it a bit more. But lately, I've been checking again. Even now, I'm sitting in my kitchen, anxiously checking to make sure no one's coming down the hallway to like, stab me. And...I don't know, I was just wondering if this is normal or not. Does anyone have any experience with this?

[Doc. Crane .-.]

I feel like this too, but I'm a paranoid scitzophrenic, so it's a little different. But just try to ignore it, unless you have a reason to be scared.

[screamtobeheard]

I mean, I try to ignore it, but it's getting worse. Last night, I was pretty much convinced there was someone in my house watching me, waiting to murder me. But, I guess it'll pass. Eventually.

[itsthat0n3kid]

have you had any traumatic experiences in your life? those tend to set off a spark of paranoia.

[screamtobeheard]

I don't...think I have. But I can block out memories to the extent that I don't remember them at all, so I could be wrong.

[itsthat0n3kid]

There could deffinently be something in the back of your mind that is causing this..

[screamtobeheard]

Is that a bad thing?

[tommay]

I honestly saw myself as a child in your post.. I hate this. I am always paranoid that someone is out to kill me/others. That there is a person in my home. I check everywhere.. sometimes I just force myself to stay in my bed, and ignore it. I don't know what "causes" it, and I don't know what to do. ;'(

[adrenaline500mg]

I know exactly what your going through. However mine is from a traumatic experience. According to a newspaper article there was a serial killer running around where i lived. I didn't sleep at night for over 3 months straight. If i did sleep it was small naps during the day.

Paranoia disorders aren't really diagnosed commonly.. Because everyone experiences paranoia to some extent... However when it becomes your whole life, which i think is your situation (and mine) it could be a disorder. And it can actually be treated medically and with therapy.

My situation with paranoia is similar. If i'm theonly one up late at night and I'm on the computer or soemthing I'll be afraid to look behind me. There's a window right behind me when i'm sitting at my computer and i'm always scared there's someone there. A trick i have is turning on the TV, or listening to music. I don't know why, I just know it calms me down. Maybe i'm like a dog, you know how dog owners will turn on the radio when they leave so their dog thinks someone's home. I think it's worse when you're walkign down teh street and you think everyone you pass is talking about you and havebad thoughts about you. And everyone you're with is tihnking badly of you. If your friendwhispers in another firend's ear, and you think it's something bad about you. I'm still convinced someone planted hidden cameras all over my house. And i always think someone's watching me through the window in the bathroom. I've actually been so paranoid that when i'm using the bathrrom i don't take my eyes off the floor because i think someone's there.

[Luke wright]

Paranoia is the like a disease.It runs into your blood ,through your mind and going into your skin.There are 3 ways to stop it.First of all you have to check that what kind of Paranoia is you have.If you have any tension then you have to give that nervous out from your body.