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July 21st, 2011, 02:10 PM
So this is a bit of a rant.
I had two best friends, one guy, and one girl.
We were like the three best friends that no one ever could have. I thought life was so good. I loved my two best friends, and I always hung out with them, and talk to them personally when I'm depressed or concerned about anything and everything.
But things started to get uncomfortable for me. The two best friends started to have feelings for each other. Now the guy friend was like, I don't want to make [me] feel left out. So I was sorry for them, but at the same time, it was a huge relief.
But then the guy friend, was like..."asking me for permission" to go out with the girl best friend. Why would he ask me for permission? So he really isn't going to go out with her if I say "no?" I think he'd start to reason with it, so I just said "Why would you ask me for permission, just do what your heart tells you to do."
Well that turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life. I should've at least tried to keep everything in the friend zone with the two of them.
The two are always telling me, that they won't change, they won't leave me, and all that crap. Well obviously, they were all lies.
Ok, so at first it was ok. But I was still a third wheel. I can't help it but to drift off, when they're going to be the ones talking with each other. So I started naturally drifting off of them, if there were not going to interact with me, when I have to give WAY more effort to interact with them, which shouldn't exist between best friends.
I drifted off, and they were like "Why did you drift off?" I'm like ....
I thought it was pretty obvious why... They keep on telling me that they will be there for me, that they will still be my best friends like they were before they dated. LIES LIES LIES...
Ok, so I started to be more close with them, but that was the most painful thing ever. I skyped with them all the time, and all they have to talk about is what is she talking about me? or what is he talking about me? blah blah blah. They fought ALL the freakin time...I was so sick of it. I think if I wasn't there, they would've broke up already.
So that went on for a while, and then I suddenly got frustrated about it. So I started to drift off again. And this time, it seemed like they didn't mind because those two were getting into a better relationship after I dropped out.
It's like...I built a bridge for them, but they pushed me off that bridge...
People from my school have been telling me, "why have you done such a stupid thing, staying between those two." It was a stupid thing, but if you think it on one side, they still are my best friends. They were the two people I really loved, so it was really hard to let go.
So there was this HUGE hiatus...I totally cut off connections with them, cause I was just so frustrated and mad, I wanted to tell them how I felt, but they never understand, so I just decided to stop talking to them.
The ridiculous thing is that they started to talk crap about me behind my back...I got so mad, that I started to get cold and blunt in front of them. I wouldn't be so mad if they were just normal people I don't really know. But it makes me more frustrated by the fact that they were my best friends... It just makes me feel like, I've been betrayed...I fell into deep depression.
The only thing I wanted to do, was to tell them how I felt and that they understand. I've been thinking of cruel things like...I want them to break up..or I hope they fight..or things like that...But that's just because I want them to feel what I feel like...which is...actually..not that relevant.
Anyway, it's been a while, and it was graduation for the Class of 2011.
At the end of graduation, it was happy day and I just wanted relieve all hatred and grudge that I had during high school, so I went up to them and said "sorry" and gave them a hug. I don't know why...I said sorry, I don't know what I'm sorry for...but it just came out...
So then...we just started talking a bit, and they're still going out, I think it's been about 8 months for them now. But it's never the same as before, and it will never be, even if they break up...
I've been always thinking about this constantly...cause it hurts me so much. It's good when a complete stranger becomes the best of your friends, but it's just sad when a best friend just becomes an... acquaintance.
What happened to bros before hoes...or pals before gals...
For them, they chose teenage love over friendship...I hate that.
It hurts...I'm actually still frustrated with them...I still have a grudge towards them...But I'm not showing anything...What should I do from this point from now on? Is it smarter to stay still, or do something?
Sorry for the lost post.
I had two best friends, one guy, and one girl.
We were like the three best friends that no one ever could have. I thought life was so good. I loved my two best friends, and I always hung out with them, and talk to them personally when I'm depressed or concerned about anything and everything.
But things started to get uncomfortable for me. The two best friends started to have feelings for each other. Now the guy friend was like, I don't want to make [me] feel left out. So I was sorry for them, but at the same time, it was a huge relief.
But then the guy friend, was like..."asking me for permission" to go out with the girl best friend. Why would he ask me for permission? So he really isn't going to go out with her if I say "no?" I think he'd start to reason with it, so I just said "Why would you ask me for permission, just do what your heart tells you to do."
Well that turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life. I should've at least tried to keep everything in the friend zone with the two of them.
The two are always telling me, that they won't change, they won't leave me, and all that crap. Well obviously, they were all lies.
Ok, so at first it was ok. But I was still a third wheel. I can't help it but to drift off, when they're going to be the ones talking with each other. So I started naturally drifting off of them, if there were not going to interact with me, when I have to give WAY more effort to interact with them, which shouldn't exist between best friends.
I drifted off, and they were like "Why did you drift off?" I'm like ....
I thought it was pretty obvious why... They keep on telling me that they will be there for me, that they will still be my best friends like they were before they dated. LIES LIES LIES...
Ok, so I started to be more close with them, but that was the most painful thing ever. I skyped with them all the time, and all they have to talk about is what is she talking about me? or what is he talking about me? blah blah blah. They fought ALL the freakin time...I was so sick of it. I think if I wasn't there, they would've broke up already.
So that went on for a while, and then I suddenly got frustrated about it. So I started to drift off again. And this time, it seemed like they didn't mind because those two were getting into a better relationship after I dropped out.
It's like...I built a bridge for them, but they pushed me off that bridge...
People from my school have been telling me, "why have you done such a stupid thing, staying between those two." It was a stupid thing, but if you think it on one side, they still are my best friends. They were the two people I really loved, so it was really hard to let go.
So there was this HUGE hiatus...I totally cut off connections with them, cause I was just so frustrated and mad, I wanted to tell them how I felt, but they never understand, so I just decided to stop talking to them.
The ridiculous thing is that they started to talk crap about me behind my back...I got so mad, that I started to get cold and blunt in front of them. I wouldn't be so mad if they were just normal people I don't really know. But it makes me more frustrated by the fact that they were my best friends... It just makes me feel like, I've been betrayed...I fell into deep depression.
The only thing I wanted to do, was to tell them how I felt and that they understand. I've been thinking of cruel things like...I want them to break up..or I hope they fight..or things like that...But that's just because I want them to feel what I feel like...which is...actually..not that relevant.
Anyway, it's been a while, and it was graduation for the Class of 2011.
At the end of graduation, it was happy day and I just wanted relieve all hatred and grudge that I had during high school, so I went up to them and said "sorry" and gave them a hug. I don't know why...I said sorry, I don't know what I'm sorry for...but it just came out...
So then...we just started talking a bit, and they're still going out, I think it's been about 8 months for them now. But it's never the same as before, and it will never be, even if they break up...
I've been always thinking about this constantly...cause it hurts me so much. It's good when a complete stranger becomes the best of your friends, but it's just sad when a best friend just becomes an... acquaintance.
What happened to bros before hoes...or pals before gals...
For them, they chose teenage love over friendship...I hate that.
It hurts...I'm actually still frustrated with them...I still have a grudge towards them...But I'm not showing anything...What should I do from this point from now on? Is it smarter to stay still, or do something?
Sorry for the lost post.