It's bad...

[IanMilo]

I cut myself 11 times in various parts of my body tonight. I actually had a really good night. It would appear I cut for joy now too :/ I've been bottling it up for awhile now, so I knew I would blow eventually

[Love.Hate]

Im sorry to hear that, was there anything that triggered it?

:hug:

[Njathind]

Like Frann said, you need to try and think back about what happened that night, and see if there was anything that could have triggered you off?

There must have been something that got you upset bud, you just need to go back over the previous night with a fine tooth combe.

[IanMilo]

I've been thinking over it. And it had been like 3 days since my Best friend decided she didn't need me in her life anymore. So that may have had a part. but mostly it was just emotions being bottled up for so long. I feel better now. But I still want to cut so bad. And it's worse when you pair it with anorexia. I just want to be small and invisible sometimes. People assume my life is so easy. It's not easy being gay, Deaf, in high school, top of class, and in Texas nonetheless. I guess i'm just ready for life to become easier.