Don't Deserve to be a Cutter

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Sometimes i feel like i don't deserve to call myself a cutter. I know 'deserve' is an odd word, as obviously no one deserves to harm themselves.

What i mean is that i don't cut deeply at all, more like scratches. There are a lot of them, but some people on here cut badly. Really badly, stitches and hospitals badly, and comparing my cuts to theirs just makes me feel more pathetic.

Like i don't qualify to be a proper cutter.

I realise how crazy i sound but its how i see it sometimes.

[Love.Hate]

Well you hurt yourself dont you?

Its not a competition. You dont want to ever cut so bad you go into hospital. I feel like this sometimes.. like sometimes they just arent good enough.

But seriously, you do "qualify" because your psyically hurting your self on purpose.. hence "Self-Harm"

:hug:

[symbol4]

I feel I cut the same as you! Cuts that turn red a little blood but not alot. Pm me if you want. :)

Agree totally with what Fran said.
:)

[PartyPoison]

I feel the same exact way. I've never needed stitches or go to a therapist or a mental hopsital. I don't feel like I should lable myself as a "cutter"

[SirRawrsalot]

No one who harms themselves is looking to be "the most badass of the cutters" or something like that. It shows a lot about you that you are even worried you don't fit in with that label, like you aren't good enough for the "real cutters". You don't have to slit your throat to cut yourself.

[Hopegirl]

I know exactly what you mean..i find it really frustrating because when i feel bad for cutting and talk to a friend that also cuts and i just feel pathetic showing them silly little " scratches" when theirs are so much worse..But im really pleased loads of other people understand :) x and its so true, its not a competition about the worst..its always how it starts, it just gets worse from there..:/ :) x

[Azunite]

You are talking as if the title "cutter" is a prestigious rank accepted by everyone.

[Magenta]

You are talking as if the title "cutter" is a prestigious rank accepted by everyone.

That's not really helpful.

I know I sometimes say I'm a cutter merely because I don't feel as alone knowing there are others who "label" themselves that way. But it's not a contest and it's definitely not a race to see who bleeds out first. You self-harm and that's that. It's not something you deserve and we wish we could see you cope another way but it is what it is and there's no proper way to be a "cutter".

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

You are talking as if the title "cutter" is a prestigious rank accepted by everyone.


Do you really think that I believe that?

Well If you do then you are sorely mistaken. I know it's not, it's just when I see others marks from self harm and compare them to mine, I look even more pathetic.

[SilentlyCrying]

I know how you feel. My cuts aren't scratches, but they aren't deep either. I feel like I don't deserve to call myself a cutter either, not that it's something to be proud of. But you do hurt yourself, so you are a "cutter".

[Emily_LOVES_MUSIC]

in 7th grade, i did the same thing... my parent foound out and got pissed, not worried pissed. and it made me feel even more worthless. but i didnt do like serioous damage. the farthest ive gone is scraping my arm leaving a mark but not drawing blood at all. so i think i can relate to u if thats wat you mean by u harm yourself

[dontcare97]

I feel the same way. I don't go too too deep and i just started, even thou I've been toying with the idea for almost three years. I don't think I am a cutter

[Veto]

yes i felt the same way but i tried to end my life with cutting so now i have big fucking scars so keep as not deep as possible

[Dorsum Oppel]

So, maybe you're a scratcher. Who cares? Then you're a scratcher. You shouldn't base your worth on how badass epic your self inflicted wounds are.

[xktx]

i feel like it too, but as everyone says your still hurting yourself purposefully, there is no need to think of all this as a competition to see who can cut the deepest, or cut the most. We all have our problem. xx

[HeartCoreHannah]

You are still a "cutter" no matter how deep or not deep you go. Be thankful you don't go too deep, this way you won't have to life with the scars for the rest of your life, trust me. I wish I was still just making "scratches" instead of deep cuts.