Abuse...?

[screamtobeheard]

Today, my friend told me my mom was verbally abusing me. Ever since my mom found out I'd been purging, she kept telling me how I ruined our "perfect" little family. Which sucked anyway because all she does is scream at me, usually for things I don't do, but that's beside the point. It's gotten worse, because all she does is criticize me. She tells me I'm lying when I'm not. Nothing I ever do is good enough for her, and it makes me feel like shit when she screams at me because I sometimes starve myself and I sometimes purge, but I already knew I was a bad person. She just makes me feel worse.

And today, she was having a raging, screaming fit. And I'm not exaggerating, at all. And I have no idea what I did for her to be so angry with me. All I do is try not to make her angry with me. But she looked at me, and screamed, "I HATE THIS. THANKS A LOT FOR RUINING MY LIFE, AMANDA. I GREATLY APPRECIATE IT." Word for word. I guess I deserve it. But it still hurt. And I went upstairs at 3:18 and laid in bed, covered up, played music, and cried. But...I don't know. I guess it's not abuse. I just needed to vent.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

It is a form of abuse, if it hurts you then it is abuse. I feel bad for you, but your not a bad person, you didnt ruin her life at all, she screams at you, so she must have something bothering her besides you. What made you purge in the first place? Guilt? Anger over yourself? Wanting to be thin? Thinking your ugly? You can send me a private message if you want. Are you under weight? It doesnt really matter though cause you do have an ED, im here for you! Just message me and ill be supportive.

[LKIFMRUG9556]

Awh that's sad :( Always be true to yourself :)

[Njathind]

Its horrible that you mum feels the need to do that, but maybe there are other things bothering her and she is choosing to use you as a punch bag? Just to make herself feel better, maybe she blames herself for you not being well? IDK but whatever it is, there is something bothering your mum.

I dunno how close you guys are, but maybe you could sit down and talk with her? Tell her how you feel when she shouts at you and says nastie things.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I know how u feel,I used to live with my father...which was horrible. But now that im with my mum,its alot better. Still,friends tell me their abusive. The way they scream death threats in my face,bitch at me and tell me imma little c*nt faced liar,yelling at me to kill myself. It hurts,but I didnt see it as abuse bc of how nightmare-ish it was at my dads. But just bc she doesnt hit or touch u doesnt mean it isnt abuse. U didnt ruin her life,shes probably angry at other things and is taking it out on u. She could also be taking ur ED rlly hard,and doesnt know how to handle it well. Have u tried talking to her about this when shes calm??

[screamtobeheard]

I've talked to her a bit about my eating when she's calm, but the problem is, I don't feel like I have an ED, so she kind of gets angry with me about it and no matter what, we end up in the same situation.

[NotAfraid]

I know what it feels like to be told that I ruined someone's life. It's the worst feeling in the world. And yes, that is abuse. By the textbook definition.

Good luck! ;)

[judahtics]

that is not abuse. it's not nice and it hurts, but it's not abuse, not even verbal abuse. it shouldn't happen though also. i hope things get better for you and i'm sorry you're having to go through this.