Life..

[AddiLixx]

I scarred to death to die *irony?*, but my depression is leading me to believe that's the only way I'll be happy. Everything is getting so overwhelming and I don't think I can deal with it much more.
My mother and family would never accept me if they knew I was gay, they constantly gay bash in front of me because they think I might be, and want me to know exactly how they feel about it.
I can't find a boyfriend in this shitty town.. It's not that there aren't gay guys, there are, but none of them want anything to do with me. Sure I'm not super skinny, and sure I'm not super pretty, but I think that I'm ok on both fronts, but apparently not.
It's just hard never being good enough for anyone, and I'm almost 100% certain my depression isn't my fault, but it feels that way ALL the time.
So yeah, I don't know.. Life is complicated, and I just have to survive one more year in this place before I get to go off to College, where I pray to God it will get better for me....

*btw, if this is in the wrong section, then sorry..*

[Angel Androgynous]

Wow it is really unfortunate to have unaccepting parents! You have to learn to endure the pain, because that will make you stronger. Do not let it bring you down! Don't worry about finding a boyfriend yet, worry about your education and future career! If you don't like the place you are in right now, plan on moving. Improve your life however you can, keep your chin up, and no one says that it's easy! You have to fight and keep moving on and enduring! Let your feelings out in creativity, art! Make friends, live, be young and be strong. ^_^ Best of luck! Life isn't aways gonna be easy. Be brave enough to live.

[zuluman78]

Life is never easy and it never will be. You have to keep strong and carry on living, the struggles that we grow through make better and stronger people once we overcome them :D
I understand that you need somebody to love, someone to relate to and be with- but as Ida said there are more important things such as your future and well being. The right guy will come just be patient :) and it isn't your fault dude, suffering is part of human functioning we ALL endure it and MUST confront and defeat it.
I'm sorry about your parents, just ignore what they say don't let it bring you down and always love them :D

Keep on going dude, good luck :D

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im sorry to hear about ur parents. When I told my mom I was bisexual,and had a girl friend. She wasnt happy, She flipped saying i was to young to know what I wanted,and basically the relationship I had with my girlfriend was meaningless and for attention. My father,pinned me to the wall and screamed faggot at me. So...Yea. But most if not all my friends are totally okai with it. I know homophobia can be super hard to deal with sometimes,more so when its ur family,but u can get threw it. As impossible as it seems right naio. And for the guys,maybe there are guys that are interested in u,but r to shy to approach u,or arent openly gay/bi. Thats how it was with most of my girlfriends,that or they werent sure if I was gay/bi. And who knows? If not naio,maybe in college u'll find a hottie and hit it off. I was the same,waiting for my aunt to let me live with her,so I could escape the judge mental shit hole of I town I was in. And it was worth the wait. So college might be to. Try to think of it that way. And if ur mood gets really low,maybe wear ur fav outfit,chill with friends,rent ur fav movie,and buy/cook ur fav meal. Just little things to up ur mood. I hope everything works out for u.