Potential eating disorder?

[mcsmate]

I'm new here. I don't exactly know how I stumbled upon this place but have went through some of the forums as I can relate to a lot of it.

So a lot has been going on lately and a few days ago I just wasn't hungry much. I have not eaten more than 800 calories each day in the last few days. Sometimes I will write down how much I've eaten and tell myself how much more I can eat and when. I have looked up calorie counts a lot more lately. I measure the amount of food I eat much more meticulously now. I do not know what this is or not but I do not feel the want to eat much anymore. Sometimes I only eat because I have to and know my body needs it. But sometimes I just won't eat.

I do not know what this could become. I looked up the symptoms of Anorexia but am not sure if it fits because this has only been this past week. Also I know that I will not 'purge'. I do not want to make myself throw up. But is 'purging' a main symptom of Anorexia?

I do know that I have lost some weight and am happy about it too.

So I just wanted to know about this. I have not thought much about eating disorders before. Could this become something bad? I do not think I am going to eat as much like I used to (which could be a lot, as I snacked a bunch). I don't know what it is.
Thanks.

Edit: Also, do you have to be "skinny" to be Anorexic or anything? I don't know. I have a pretty average weight (though I don't like the skin I am in or how I look sometimes). Just the stereotypes are "small", but I try not to buy into them.

Edit 2: Looking up more information this could be an EDNOS, I don't know though.

And I used to super active when I was younger but some stuff happened in life that got me depressed. I ended up with a "pouch" on my stomach so to say. My dad would always ask if I am working out or how I need to lose that. It makes me really self-conscious and I hate it. Since I don't work out too much, this gets to more than it should. I lie to him on how well I am eating and exercising so he can be proud of how I am doing and not think there is anything wrong.

Also some of this started because I snacked on a lot of bad/gross/junk food one day. I just kept eating (and I do not think I 'binge' really). I felt so bad after that. I always feel bad/gross after I eat junk food, always. And my friends tell me it's not that bad and also that it won't affect me much because of my size but I still hate it, so much. Sometimes after I eat, I brush my teeth just so I can get the taste of food out of my mouth, specifically when I eat bad food. I will brush my teeth multiple times to not have the taste of food in my mouth. It leaves me disgusted with food if I do not.

Sorry this is so long.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

Welcome! First off, you dont have to be sorry this is long cause ive made longer posts. Secondly, you might be anorexic, you dont necessarily have to be skinny to fit into the category, only if you have a problem eating, then again, if you think you might and are worried that you might have an ED you should seek professional advice, as in not taking quizzes on the net or asking a friend. EDNOS sounds more like what you have, but the again im no expert.

I have the same feeling when i eat junk food, i feel gross in a way that i ate something unhealthy and its going to put weight on me even though it was something small like a piece of pie or a few hot cheetohs.

Now, why do you obsess over calories? Are you afraid of gaining weight?

We're all here to help you, if you need to contact any of us just to chat we welcome you.

[mcsmate]

The less the calories, the less weight to gain. I have had a pretty average weight, as I said, but I just don't want to gain any. Other times it is just me restricting the amount of food that is going into my body so it doesn't affect me.

Also I don't take quizzes online, as I have found that do not do me any good. I just look up information on things, such as EDs. I just get my research done and look at how I am doing.

And thanks for the help.

[nnnnnnnnn9999]

right now at this point i dont think you do. you are in the beginning stages(i remember being just like you at that point) but now im locked up in a treatment center and am fat. if you just dont want to gain weight eat healthy(which i know is really hard because deep down you do want it probably but even deeper down you know you dont). please get ouut of it before its too late, it will make your life a living hell.

[mcsmate]

I am trying my best just to eat healthy. The only thing is I feel I have to do this sometimes. Also my entire immediate family will be together at the end of August. We have not had that in a long time. I felt bad, but I sent an email to my dad clarifying plans, and told him how I was working out. I lie to him so he thinks I'm doing well. Now I feel I have to prove it to him. I have to show that I am doing okay. I cannot be a wreck when I am out there. I have to not let this and my other problems faze me. I feel I just need to do this until then and maybe a bit after, just before my school year starts (by the way, I'll be a senior in college). I know that is a bad mindset but I don't think I can get rid of it yet.