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Alexithymia
July 19th, 2011, 03:34 AM
Sixteen days without cutting. And I'm horribly depressed. Depressed to the point where I don't care whether or not people care if I'm dead. I just want to be gone. It's been so long since I've seen anyone I can trust. Do they even still like me? Can I still trust them? Am I alone? I have you, VT, and the rest of the internet... but a hug is still a hug. You can't give it over the internet. But I have no one. No one in this huge world of people. Two friends that I trust. One of them I don't... I don't really like. At all. And the other doesn't want to help me through any of this. I doubt they would care if I was dead. I could commit suicide and no one would notice.
bakrb448
July 19th, 2011, 03:47 AM
16 days - you should be proud of that
Second, someone, somewhere will care if your dead
Third, Your not alone- theres others out there in similar situations

Oh and
*internet hug* from IL
zuluman78
July 19th, 2011, 10:38 AM
16 days is a good achievement and you should reward yourself for being able to control and withstand such self harm.

Life is hard and its always been that way, you have to sometimes learn to be alone in times of trouble and find comfort in yourself. Suicide is a final solution not even a solution in its self. Try and find some self worth, you are worth alot more than you think :D

Enduring and passing the pain will give you strength, good luck :)
XxMurderedKissesxX
July 19th, 2011, 01:44 PM
Firstly,u should be so proud of urself,that uve gone 16 days. Secondly,ur family would notice,and it would destroy them if u where gone. I know depression hurts,and is the hardest thing in the world to fight,but it alters ur thinking,to hopelessness and u think things u wouldnt b4. Try to remember everyone has atleast one person who cares about them in the world. Even though,sometimes it doesnt seem like that,its true. I get where ur comming from. I talk about almost everything on VT,which is great,but theres not in person connection. And theres pretty much no one I can go to,to help me with my "issues" But hang in there. In person or not,people want to see u happy. : )