I can't do this.

[screamtobeheard]

I don't know if this should be here, seeing as it concerns a lot of other categories, but I'm freaking out.

My boyfriend hurt his back and his pain meds are fucking with him and he keeps falling down steps and off the couch and just in general and I'm worried as hell. My best friend is having issues with her boyfriend, and I'm worried she's going to get depressed. I can't have her going through hell like that. My other friend keeps discreetly telling me I'm hurting her, so much. All I do is hurt people and all I do is try to make them happy. I'm worried I won't get into Princeton. I can't get my driver's license until my mom believes I'm not purging anymore. Which will be never. My mother's just a flat out bitch. She degrades me and makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit who does everything wrong and fucks up our family. I know she doesn't do it on purpose, but still. And I hate myself so much. More than ever. I'm honestly starting to think I could kill myself out of self hatred...I want to starve myself and not get in trouble. I'm so fat. I honestly just can't live with it much longer...And all I do is hurt people. This kid is totally in love with me, but he hurt me, and I have a boyfriend now, but now that he can't have me, he wants me, and he keeps telling me how much he loves me, and it hurts because I don't want to hurt him and it's so stupid, but so stressful.

[skater94]

If you stop worrying about stuff you can't control (eg. boyfriend's injury, other's perception of you, getting into Princeton), perhaps you can realize that your situation isn't that bad. When your friend constantly tells that you're hurting her, do you know why she's doing that? If she doesn't have a reason to do that, is she still your friend?

You're fat only if you think you're fat. Why do you think you're fat? If you can't answer that question with a quality answer that makes sense, you shouldn't worry about your weight.

It's good that you're trying to make people feel happy, and continue to do that. Remember, suicide will everyone around you even more.

I don't know you or your background, so I cannot comment more about this. And by the way, good luck sorting out issues with your mom.