CyanideGoodnight
July 18th, 2011, 06:24 PM
I will never forget him. And I don't think it's possible to forgive him, either. I don't care if she wouldn't want me to be upset and I don't care if she would want him to be forgiven. I love her still, she's alive in my heart as she should be, happy and healthy.
At the age of 16 I already decided that I will name one of my children after her, in her memory. This I believe she would want. I will tell everyone I can about her. Each year, on the anniversary of her death, I will light a candle and actually pray. Only to say hello to her, I refuse to think my attempts in this are in vain.
She was only 10. I was 11. She had erverything to look foward to in life. But he hit her with his car and didn't stop, dragged her bike for a few blocks before it fell off. She was in the hospital. She was getting better. Some of her cuts and bruises, were healing. I thought she would be fine. Then she was announced to be brain dead. And so the doctor turned off her respirator off like it was a light switch. A light switch for god's sake! Whoever thought of that to turn things on and off... how cruel a desighn in machienery. It's more then that. It's a life switch, your turning off the only thing making her legally alive. I don't know what you can do to make the process more cruel seeming, but why a fucking light switch? To this day I can't look at one without thinking about her. And I wasn't even there when he did it, but that was the description given, ans so it is the description I memorized in my young brain.
But, what did he get for what he did? Only afew years of jailtime from what I heard.
Worst part is I don't know the name of the guy who killed her. I don't know who to blame for her death. I want to find out, to confront him. I think it's more then want, it's quite possibly a need. I need closure, this is the only way I know how to get it.
R.I.P. Mariah, I will make sure you are never forgotten. ♥
At the age of 16 I already decided that I will name one of my children after her, in her memory. This I believe she would want. I will tell everyone I can about her. Each year, on the anniversary of her death, I will light a candle and actually pray. Only to say hello to her, I refuse to think my attempts in this are in vain.
She was only 10. I was 11. She had erverything to look foward to in life. But he hit her with his car and didn't stop, dragged her bike for a few blocks before it fell off. She was in the hospital. She was getting better. Some of her cuts and bruises, were healing. I thought she would be fine. Then she was announced to be brain dead. And so the doctor turned off her respirator off like it was a light switch. A light switch for god's sake! Whoever thought of that to turn things on and off... how cruel a desighn in machienery. It's more then that. It's a life switch, your turning off the only thing making her legally alive. I don't know what you can do to make the process more cruel seeming, but why a fucking light switch? To this day I can't look at one without thinking about her. And I wasn't even there when he did it, but that was the description given, ans so it is the description I memorized in my young brain.
But, what did he get for what he did? Only afew years of jailtime from what I heard.
Worst part is I don't know the name of the guy who killed her. I don't know who to blame for her death. I want to find out, to confront him. I think it's more then want, it's quite possibly a need. I need closure, this is the only way I know how to get it.
R.I.P. Mariah, I will make sure you are never forgotten. ♥