Magenta
July 18th, 2011, 12:30 PM
Now, at first sight, this may look like it belongs in Relationships & Dating but this is more family related...
I know a lot of people come from divorced families. I only just thought of this now though I've considered it before...
How can I believe in love? I'm surrounded by people whose marriages have ended. My parents can't even function around each other even after nearly eight years. My mum denies that my step-mum is actually that because she and my dad have lived together for almost seven and I've grown up with her. My step-mum is even divorced from her ex. It just seems like love isn't possible.
I'm scared to get married. I don't want to get married. I don't want to be in that position where things break up and you have kids who will suffer because of it. I know the feeling all too well- trying to mediate for your parents, being caught in the middle.
There's the line "I didn't divorce you, I divorced your mother/father" which is really just BS as well as "It's between your mother/father and I, it has nothing to do with you". When it comes down to it, none of that is true because children of divorced parents will always have something to do with it. Without us, our parents would have nothing to do with each other just like they wanted. It makes me so guilty that I never want to get married and have my life pan out the way I've seen my parents'.
Ugh. Just a confused rant while I'm watching a movie that's basically like my life on a TV screen. Does anyone else feel like this?
I know a lot of people come from divorced families. I only just thought of this now though I've considered it before...
How can I believe in love? I'm surrounded by people whose marriages have ended. My parents can't even function around each other even after nearly eight years. My mum denies that my step-mum is actually that because she and my dad have lived together for almost seven and I've grown up with her. My step-mum is even divorced from her ex. It just seems like love isn't possible.
I'm scared to get married. I don't want to get married. I don't want to be in that position where things break up and you have kids who will suffer because of it. I know the feeling all too well- trying to mediate for your parents, being caught in the middle.
There's the line "I didn't divorce you, I divorced your mother/father" which is really just BS as well as "It's between your mother/father and I, it has nothing to do with you". When it comes down to it, none of that is true because children of divorced parents will always have something to do with it. Without us, our parents would have nothing to do with each other just like they wanted. It makes me so guilty that I never want to get married and have my life pan out the way I've seen my parents'.
Ugh. Just a confused rant while I'm watching a movie that's basically like my life on a TV screen. Does anyone else feel like this?