VirtuallyProud
July 18th, 2011, 01:31 AM
You know how they always say that if a guy and a girl are best friends, they end up falling for each other? Well, damn me if that isn't true.
I just graduated high school not so long ago, and in 9th grade me and my best friend, Amanda, met. Over those 4, seemingly short, years, we fell in and out of love. It wasn't until the end that we completely fell in love. We truly are each others high school sweethearts. It was all very troubling though because she is into females. She claims she can't love someone with a penis. But yet, she has. Me.
I had to move away at the end of high school due to parental troubles and we've been separated ever since. I miss her like crazy, and vice versa for her. This isn't something i really need advice on, but i'm just feeling like i don't matter as much to her. I mean, every time we talk (which isn't very much) we have fun and talk about everything. She even came down to see me once. She hardly texts me back, she's always busy, something is always coming between us. We had that drama/romance movie without the lovely ending. We had the bad one where it doesn't work.
We planned on moving in together, not because we just dislike our family situation, but because we love each other. That didn't happen because we couldn't find jobs before my moving deadline. I just feel so lost without her. . .my other half is gone. I'm not me.
How can I be me when half of me lives so far away? Only one tear falls down my face because she holds the rest of who I am. . .This was just a ay for me to vent.
I can't hold on for much longer. I need my soul mate.
Feel free to move. . .
I just graduated high school not so long ago, and in 9th grade me and my best friend, Amanda, met. Over those 4, seemingly short, years, we fell in and out of love. It wasn't until the end that we completely fell in love. We truly are each others high school sweethearts. It was all very troubling though because she is into females. She claims she can't love someone with a penis. But yet, she has. Me.
I had to move away at the end of high school due to parental troubles and we've been separated ever since. I miss her like crazy, and vice versa for her. This isn't something i really need advice on, but i'm just feeling like i don't matter as much to her. I mean, every time we talk (which isn't very much) we have fun and talk about everything. She even came down to see me once. She hardly texts me back, she's always busy, something is always coming between us. We had that drama/romance movie without the lovely ending. We had the bad one where it doesn't work.
We planned on moving in together, not because we just dislike our family situation, but because we love each other. That didn't happen because we couldn't find jobs before my moving deadline. I just feel so lost without her. . .my other half is gone. I'm not me.
How can I be me when half of me lives so far away? Only one tear falls down my face because she holds the rest of who I am. . .This was just a ay for me to vent.
I can't hold on for much longer. I need my soul mate.
Feel free to move. . .