This is pointless...

[Magenta]

...but I feel great. I wanted to share. No, I needed to share. All my posts lately have been so hopeless that I needed to change it.

I'm up north, it's been one week since I last self-harmed (and I wasn't even keeping count at first) and I went swimming in a tank top without covering my scars. I spent the day with a smile on my face. I got to joke around with my dad while listening to music from my childhood in the car and spent the entire day basking in the sun off the back of our boat.

I'm now sitting on the patio of our new trailer (sort of like a mini-cottage on wheels), looking out on the park and even though it's under construction and covered in dust and debris from the new owners' work, it's the most beautiful place ever and I don't want to leave.

It's been so long since I felt this good without being "high". My new medication has been working amazingly and I feel hope I didn't have before. Since I'm still smiling, I'm hoping a happy post will make others smile.

Now to make two weeks!

EDIT: Well, an inch-long beetle fell in my hair and I just got dive-bombed by spiders but... ehhhhhhhh. Day is still good enough. xD

[PartyPoison]

That's great Jo :3 Your post is making me smile so big right now. its awesome that you didnt cover up your scars while swimming, you're so much more brave then I am where I don't even go swimming. A week is amazing. You can make it two<3

[TheMatrix]

Yaay! A happy day is had by all!
:kitty:

[Amaryllis]

I'm so happy for you, Jo!!! I could just CUDDLE you right now! :D I'm so friggin happy cause you're happy. Hold on to that feeling. When you feel like you're sinking again, remember this. Remember and smile :)

We live for moments like these.

Love,
Faith And Trust

[HeartCoreHannah]

I'm so glad to here you haven't cut and you're feeling better. :D I had the biggest smile on my face by the time I was done reading this. I can only wish the BEST of luck to you. (:

~Hugggssss~

[xdancing_for_rainx]

That's great! Happy to hear you're doing so well :) Put a smile on my face to read that(:

[Love.Hate]

This did make me smile!

Yaaaaay you go girl!! Im so proud of you, well done and keep it up. You feeling good has made me feel good :D :D

[TrAnSMaN09]

Aweeee Jo! Im soo glad your happy! Mind if i ask what medication your on? Just for conversations sake <3

[Magenta]

Tyler, I'm on an antidepressant and an antipsychotic, Manerix and Seroquel, respectively. Seroquel is a pretty nasty drug but at a low dosage, it's manageable. :)

Spent the day on the boat again and in a tank top even though there were other people there. Hoping the sun will help fade the one scar I'm having an issue with... once my sunburn goes away. (And I'm getting freckles again... o_o)

[Love.Hate]

I hope it fades it for you too!!

And yaaay join the freckle crew :P

[Lawliet]

Woohoo, Jo's happy. :D Sounds like your having better whether than where I am.

[Magenta]

Haha, the weather has been great. Sunny and warm (occasionally on the scorching side though...) and haven't seen a cloud all day. It's great. I have a feeling that's partially why my mood is better but I'm not complaining.

[morbidmonkey]

I hope you continue to feel happy for the rest of the summer! I hope everyone else will be strong like Jo too!!

[TrAnSMaN09]

aweeeeee, Jo's getting freckles, thats soo cuteee, (No slapping me, Im allowed to make fun of you :p)

and that's awesome hun, Im so proud of you <3

[Magenta]

Little worried because I am going home today but... I'm trying not to worry too much.

[PartyPoison]

You'll be okay, try not to focus on being worried and try to stay happy, you make everyone else happy when you're happy.