In School

[Anonymous]

Today, in school, first hour we were doing something. All of a sudden, I don't know why, but I jammed my pencil into my left wrist. I realized what I was doing quick enough to stop myself from doing too much. I just made a small scar. It didn't bleed much. The worst part is, I liked it. I tried to hide it as much as I could because I was in the same class as other people who know I"ve wavered on that line. I really wanted to put pressure on it. I really liked it. I forgot everything that was stressing me out. I don't even know why I did it, I just did. Almost on a subconcious level.

I don't know why. I wasn't unhappy, or angry. If anything just stressed because finals are comming up.

I don't know, just wanted to write this somewhere, this seemed like the best place.


-Ekia

[kevin]

:hug:

Just keep yourself from doing it again.

Happy thoughts!
Kevin

[Anonymous]

I really don't want to do it again, but it's wierd. I like the scar. I keep feeling it, pushing on it, looking at it. For some reason...I like it. :?

[AC.wAkeBoArDin.06]

ok... can some people who have stopped cutting respond to this plz.... and Anthony... dont do it... its like the ez way out and if u want that stuff from our aim convo to work... scars on ur arm wont help

[Anonymous]

It's not that I did this really knowingly. It took me a second to realize it happened. I don't know, but I liked it.

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

so what your just sitting there paying attention to the lesson and all of a sudden you look down and youve stabbed yourself? thats messed up man :P. i wish you the strongest willpower so you wont feel like you have to do it again

[Anonymous]

uh.....................HOLY FUCKING SHIT PLZ BE JOKING! PLZ DONT KEEP DOING IT EKIA! YUR SO NICE, I DONT WNAT YOU TO PUNCTURE AN ARTERY OR SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Waiting]

umm jeez pop n' fresh, u get scared - or over excited..or sumthin easy

just calm down ekia..this isnbig deal..yet
if it turns into something more...then it becomes a big deal,

onyl advice stay away from sharp things, and if u want to cause ureself physical pain (which sounds what this is) get a elastic band and put it on ure wrist an dpull it up as hard as u can and let go...it hurts..

anyway....just dont let it go into something more

[Anonymous]

so what your just sitting there paying attention to the lesson and all of a sudden you look down and youve stabbed yourself?

Not really, like I knew I was doing it, but I didn't realize what I was doing.

Popo, this is not a habit, there isn't anything to worry about, yet, as Cody said.

I'm gonna try (edited to fix name sorry, I just see the MOD smiley) Patch I just am worried because I am obsessed with the scar. Literally obsessed! I don't know why but I just love to push on it and see it and...idk it's wierd.

-Ekia

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

Just try and catch yourself before you do it again....and do you have a motive for doing it?

[Ravenous]

Thats patch not code lmao. Im sorry anthony, just try not to make this into a habit.

[Whisper]

Thats patch not code lmao. Im sorry anthony, just try not to make this into a habit.

Hey he is upset and distrought if he wants to thank me instead then for him, I will accept the responsibility of graditude. Its a tough job but someones gotta do it.

Honestly thought i'd just do sumthin else, like what Patch suggested or you could wack your arm with your hand or bite your tounge (I do that all the time, not extremly hard just enough to feel somthing).

But you should be careful if your feeling really upset then you need to talk to someone weither its a friend, teacher, school nurse, school counciler, TA, parents whatever, whoever your most comftorble with.

Right now I agree with Patch this isn't serious but it has the potential to be.

[Anonymous]

Ya'll, the scar is starting to heal, and an urge to reopen it is geting bigger! I don't know why, but I really want to reopen this scar. I loved the pain! I don't know what it is, I've not felt like this before. I know I shouldn't, but I want to. I don't know, maybe I'm just stressed because of school...I don't know...

[Anonymous]

oh wel, cheer up, summe ris almost here :hug:

[-Silence]

It probably has alot to do with stress. Do you feel so overwhelmed with school, that the pain would just ease it a bit? Sorry, but from here, that sounds like self-harm.

Can you try the stickey? When your at school and you feel these urges, can you write it all down? Writing for many people provide an emotional release, maybe that might help?

Hang in there,
:hug:
Take Care.

[Anonymous]

Little scared right now, my friend wants to check my wrists tomorrow. The scar is still there, barly, but still there. I'm trying to make him forget it. I don't want him to know I did this. I don't want to have to explain it. Not good...

[Chrono]

it'll be dishonest but you can tell him it was an accident, dont make it a habit of lying though, cause that will make it easier to cut becaquse you will become better and better at making up excuses and lies, but just once I think it would be fine as long as you don't continue doing it

[Help0069]

I seem to like pain, too. I don't know why, but I find myself doing the same - I find myself looking at blades with lust, instead of fear. It's kind of scary, but in a way I think it will just pass.

[MadManic]

I really don't want to do it again, but it's wierd. I like the scar. I keep feeling it, pushing on it, looking at it. For some reason...I like it. :?

I know exactly what you mean. I'm about the same way. It's mesmerizing and i hate to admit it. For me that's what keeps drawing me back. I do so well for long periods of time and i tell myself i don't need it but then i suddenly miss it and want it and i relapse. Try a red pen. It works for a little while and still looks really cool. I found that if i tries to draw what looked like a scar in red pen it had a good effect

[Luminous]

I know exactly what you mean. I'm about the same way. It's mesmerizing and i hate to admit it. For me that's what keeps drawing me back. I do so well for long periods of time and i tell myself i don't need it but then i suddenly miss it and want it and i relapse. Try a red pen. It works for a little while and still looks really cool. I found that if i tries to draw what looked like a scar in red pen it had a good effect

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