Hershey's Kisses
July 15th, 2011, 08:07 PM
It really isn't very enjoyable being lonely. It justs make me depressed and insecure. I feel like I don't even like myself anymore. It's not like I haven't tried to make friends. I have for six years. I did join club sat school , since about first grade. I recently was enrollled in a school club where my alleged friend goes three of four months without speaking to me- answering texts, calling me, talking via facebook or anything. Just flat out ignores me.
Honestly I'm not suree what to do. Maybe I am just incabable of making friends ? Anyway <, I'm extremely shy and it's very difficult for me to talk to people, let alone make friends. I don't know how. And I do know people with a common interest to me.
I know girls who love ballet just as much as me, but no matter how hard I try to speak, I can't say anything to them. I'm so scared :/ Pathetic and idiotic, I know. I should grow up , that I know too. Am I mute ? Or mentally ill ? Why can't I make friends?
I took ballet all week for 6 hours and could barely speak because I am too shy. Is there any hope ? I just need someone. Someone to call all the time. Someone to always hang out with. But the girls at my school are already heavily involved in childish cliques, therefore I feel like I shoulddn't talk to them. Another thing is, I'm always waiting for the right time to talk, yet I plan it for days, but the words never come out.
Okay, that's enough. Rant/ venting or whatever you call it is over. Just felt like I needed to say how it is .
Honestly I'm not suree what to do. Maybe I am just incabable of making friends ? Anyway <, I'm extremely shy and it's very difficult for me to talk to people, let alone make friends. I don't know how. And I do know people with a common interest to me.
I know girls who love ballet just as much as me, but no matter how hard I try to speak, I can't say anything to them. I'm so scared :/ Pathetic and idiotic, I know. I should grow up , that I know too. Am I mute ? Or mentally ill ? Why can't I make friends?
I took ballet all week for 6 hours and could barely speak because I am too shy. Is there any hope ? I just need someone. Someone to call all the time. Someone to always hang out with. But the girls at my school are already heavily involved in childish cliques, therefore I feel like I shoulddn't talk to them. Another thing is, I'm always waiting for the right time to talk, yet I plan it for days, but the words never come out.
Okay, that's enough. Rant/ venting or whatever you call it is over. Just felt like I needed to say how it is .