didnt know where to put this

[bambino]

I didn't know where to put this, but as I have BDD [body dysmorphic disorder, wikipedia it] I thought it was best suited here, as people with ana or mia often have BDD as well.

So I'm stuck in my room, crying because I am so hungry- I want to go downstairs and eat. I need to eat, I have loads of work I need to be doing. But my brother and all his friends are downstairs.
I have been hiding from them, I hate people seeing me, but especially other teenagers. Especially boys. I feel so ugly

i found out my anorexic friend uses me as her thinspiration, and i dont know what to do. i feel so sad and lost, like i helped her to get sick and i love her so much

[Love.Hate]

You didnt help her to get sick, its not your fault.

Can you not just avoid your brothers mates and go downstairs quickly? You need to eat something. Your not ugly Cat, your beautiful.

:hug:

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

Wow, its like i was reading my own words; I have been hiding from them , I hate people seeing me, but especially other teenagers. Especially boys. I feel so ugly.

Im afraid of teenage boys as well, so much that when one is near me my heart beats fast and i feel like i need to hide. And sometimes i turn red when theyre to close.

I just looked up BDD and i feel like i have it, but thats just my opinion. I did send a long paragraph to my therapist about my body weight and losing alot of it to find the perfect body for me.


Advice and encouragement: Even though she calls you her thinspiration, its NOT your fault shes sick. You didnt do it on purpose, you had nothing to do with it. Its herself seeing you as a guide line, the best thing to do is give her encouragement and tell her that leading in your body image isnt good because shes NOT you.

And your SO NOT ugly. Your picture is cute and beautiful. Maybe hiding snacks like healthy chips or fruit bars will help you next time that happens so you wont have to feel humiliated going downstairs.

[bambino]

You didnt help her to get sick, its not your fault.

Can you not just avoid your brothers mates and go downstairs quickly? You need to eat something. Your not ugly Cat, your beautiful.

:hug:

thank you fran (: that means a lot. ditto! hope you're well, are we friends on here? if not add me!

In the end I rang a friend and said I was upset, she came over with a tonne of food in a bag so we could eat up in my room. She cheered me up a lot, it was just a pretty bad day.

[bambino]

Wow, its like i was reading my own words; I have been hiding from them , I hate people seeing me, but especially other teenagers. Especially boys. I feel so ugly.

Im afraid of teenage boys as well, so much that when one is near me my heart beats fast and i feel like i need to hide. And sometimes i turn red when theyre to close.

I just looked up BDD and i feel like i have it, but thats just my opinion. I did send a long paragraph to my therapist about my body weight and losing alot of it to find the perfect body for me.


Advice and encouragement: Even though she calls you her thinspiration, its NOT your fault shes sick. You didnt do it on purpose, you had nothing to do with it. Its herself seeing you as a guide line, the best thing to do is give her encouragement and tell her that leading in your body image isnt good because shes NOT you.

And your SO NOT ugly. Your picture is cute and beautiful. Maybe hiding snacks like healthy chips or fruit bars will help you next time that happens so you wont have to feel humiliated going downstairs.

Hi (: I replied to your own thread about this. But I thought I'd reply on here as well.
Thats actually a really good idea about having some emergency snacks in my room, thanks I will do that.

And thank you, I wish I could see it! But as you can imagine- I cannot see myself as cute or beautiful. And I find it difficult to believe compliments, as I'm sure you do because what you see in the mirror is so different...to maybe what other people see.
Hope you reply on your thread and I'll talk to you soon.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Hunny,u didnt help her get sick. If u werent her thinspiration,someone else would be. Chances are bc u have BDD,she has someone to talk to about,and doesnt feel so alone with her disorder. I know what u mean,when im home,and someones in the kitchen but im hungry,i dont go in. I feel like they would all look at me like,oh big surprise,fattys come to stuff her face some more,and i get all guilty. From ur picture ur everything BUT ugly. Although,i get where ur coming from. I hardly ever leave my room bc i feel so disgusting and nasty,no matter what anyone says to me,half the time i sum it up to their liars taking pity on me. But i can assure u,this isnt what im trying to do. U look beautiful. And im jealous. Lol.

[bambino]

Hunny,u didnt help her get sick. If u werent her thinspiration,someone else would be. Chances are bc u have BDD,she has someone to talk to about,and doesnt feel so alone with her disorder. I know what u mean,when im home,and someones in the kitchen but im hungry,i dont go in. I feel like they would all look at me like,oh big surprise,fattys come to stuff her face some more,and i get all guilty. From ur picture ur everything BUT ugly. Although,i get where ur coming from. I hardly ever leave my room bc i feel so disgusting and nasty,no matter what anyone says to me,half the time i sum it up to their liars taking pity on me. But i can assure u,this isnt what im trying to do. U look beautiful. And im jealous. Lol.

I feel like I did. And now I feel like when I'm with her she's just using me to make herself more motivated to lose weight, and when she doesn't want to see me I feel like it's because I'm a bad influence.

I'm sorry you feel that way too; I hate feeling guilty about eating :( it's not fair. I've been trying to eat a lot infront of my friends, they laugh at me and talk about me stuffing my face but I laugh with them to get over the guilt of eating a lot in public.

thank you hun- I posted on your message wall, you look really naturally pretty in your avatar so I wouldnt be jealous of anything when youre blessed already! xx