LiTTleBrok3nDolly
July 14th, 2011, 09:59 PM
I once was 100, at age 15, then i slowly gained weight and before i knew it i weighed 150! then i gained more and weighed 153 D: Now i lost 7 lbs, down to 146, i still feel fat. I want to lose the 53 lbs i gained, i want to be that size 5 again, or even smaller! Im a 7 but i look and feel much bigger! I hate it! Im fast walking to lose it and am trying to eat well, drink tea that helps lose weight. The only thing missing is self image, mine is terr-i-ble. I think im ugly, overweight, big boobed weirdo, socially awkward freak, cant talk to guys my own age. Afraid of boys around 8, afraid of men especially with mustaches...anyways, back to the topic.
I guess i should just wait until im thin again? I want a boob reduction. Yah, i dont like saying the real word for the girls. Im a 34KK and i only say that because noone really knows who i am. I want to be back to a 34C, where i still felt uncomfortable because i was 13, but since im older than 15, being a C sounds perfect to me!
Im trying not to get misty eyed. I saw a girl at my kingdom hall who was wearing a red shirt and she looked so skinny i hated her i was and am so jealous of her! Shes small boobed and skinny! I HATE my body!!!!!!
Its like im stuck with this fat in me that mocks me when i look at smaller sizes and mocks me when i look in the mirror saying "Im making you big, ha ha ha ha ha ha" and i feel like an ug moe. Like "yah i dont excersize, i eat and eat and im a coach potaote!" When im not anymore! Why cant the real results show what i really am doing? Eating healthy and excersizing and not wearing baggy clothing...hold onto that, some are slighty big on me. They hide me, but i just want....small! I want to be small and im not :(
Its so frustrating! I have a friend whose 14 and she fits into my old 5 jeans, and shes small boobed and she hates it WHY DOES SHE HATE IT? why does she want curves? Just a little is fine for me! Not alot! Like i have! i cant believe her, i cant i dont like myself. my mom is 130, 34dd. Im 146, 34kk. I want to be thinner than my mom, lighter, smaller. Thats normal to want obvisouly, who wants to be bigger than their own mom? Im about to cry so i will end this, i cant describe it enough how much i want to be thin. Sorry for complaning.
I guess i should just wait until im thin again? I want a boob reduction. Yah, i dont like saying the real word for the girls. Im a 34KK and i only say that because noone really knows who i am. I want to be back to a 34C, where i still felt uncomfortable because i was 13, but since im older than 15, being a C sounds perfect to me!
Im trying not to get misty eyed. I saw a girl at my kingdom hall who was wearing a red shirt and she looked so skinny i hated her i was and am so jealous of her! Shes small boobed and skinny! I HATE my body!!!!!!
Its like im stuck with this fat in me that mocks me when i look at smaller sizes and mocks me when i look in the mirror saying "Im making you big, ha ha ha ha ha ha" and i feel like an ug moe. Like "yah i dont excersize, i eat and eat and im a coach potaote!" When im not anymore! Why cant the real results show what i really am doing? Eating healthy and excersizing and not wearing baggy clothing...hold onto that, some are slighty big on me. They hide me, but i just want....small! I want to be small and im not :(
Its so frustrating! I have a friend whose 14 and she fits into my old 5 jeans, and shes small boobed and she hates it WHY DOES SHE HATE IT? why does she want curves? Just a little is fine for me! Not alot! Like i have! i cant believe her, i cant i dont like myself. my mom is 130, 34dd. Im 146, 34kk. I want to be thinner than my mom, lighter, smaller. Thats normal to want obvisouly, who wants to be bigger than their own mom? Im about to cry so i will end this, i cant describe it enough how much i want to be thin. Sorry for complaning.