What a fucking let-down.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Today was my two week anniversary for being self harm free. And I just ruined it.

Honestly, it's mental how weak I am. How I rely on others to make me happy. How I can take the smallest thing and blow it wanout of preportion. How I can talk myself down into a depression.

All of this happened tonight and it was a sodding waste of time.

I broke one of my dads razors to get a blade, it's a cheap one, the thin type that stings when you cut. Then I cut myself. It bled quite quickly, looked quite impressive too, until I cleaned it up!
It just looks like a bunch of tiny paper cuts now ive washed the blood away, what a fucking waste!

Almost a disappointment.

Odd rant I know, but anyone else get this? Or are my cuts just too god damn superficial...

[Love.Hate]

I do this a lot, try to focus on the positives and not bring yourself into a depressive state. (and yeah when it looks like you have cut deep-ish when there is lots of blood and it turns out you havent really) :/

Well done on going that long without, your not weak. Cause you went a long time! Just dont let this knock you down. Pick yourself back up again and try again.

:hug:

[Charlotte93]

I know exactly how you feel like I mean exactly cause I was there not long ago, I remember the tiny paper cut lines that are just starting to turn into scars and I feel your pain. I geuss you just got to push through it, ya know i just started doing stuff that distracted me. I am curently making tons of braclets just to keep my hands bussy and I find that Painting red lines is such a good destraction cause it feels like the blood is on your skin but you can just was it away.

Trust me you are worth it and even if it was a let down you deserve to pick yourself up. When I'm in that mood i always tear myself down and degrade myself, but theres more to it than just puting your self down, you know what i mean, you have to really try to stop it's not just going to stop like that and if your not ready to stop then your not ready, some people may see this as bad advice but they don't matter cause they havent been there, you cant just for yourself to stop if your not ready to, cause then you'll just have more let downs and more cuts, you have to want it, you really have to be willing to make some big changes, but don't see it as a let down, see it as another chance to get back up:hug2:

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I think I know what you mean... if I make a cut/other injury that isn't ''bad'' enough for me, it sometimes just makes me feel worse. Like, I can't even hurt myself enough to satisfy, and it's another thing I can't do "right." Doesn't feel too great :/

But it's great you got that two weeks! That's a huge accomplishment(: It sounds like you're making progress in getting through self-harm, and that's wonderful. Hang in there, and keep up the great effort<3

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

dont cut

Easier said than done.

[gabzas331]

dont cut

You have clearly never self harmed: it ain't that simple.


-G