Someone please help me.

[HeartCoreHannah]

My cutting has got a lot worse. I don't know what to do. I can't eat and I can't stop cutting. Every cut gets deeper and bleeds more. I'm to the point I'm terrified of food. I just want to be fixed. I want to take back the last three years of my life. I wish I would of never made the first cut. I don't want to deal with this anymore!! Usually when I talk to Michael on the phone, it keeps me from cutting. But now, I just do it quietly. He eventually found out when I busted out crying, but I just don't know what to do. I just don't know how to stop.

[1_21Guns]

Self harm is an addiction, and eventually people reach the point you have, the point where they don't want the addiction anymore. Perhaps as the severity has increased, you might want to seek professional help to try and stop self harming. However if not, you are strong enough to beat it on your own. Stopping is incredibly difficult, but very rewarding. You don't need that blade, it's not helping you, it's not taking anything away, and it's certainly not going to make 3 years disappear for you.
As for the eating, try to eat small portions of your favourite foods, overcome your fear. It's not going to damage your body, you need it to survive.

Stay strong Hannah :hug3:

[Njathind]

It sounds like your hooked on hurting yourself hun :hug:

The first thing you gotta do is accept theres a problem, which is a really big deal and you have done that, you should be proud of yourself. :yes:

I really think you should reach out and get some help and support, theres only so much we can do through the internet. I would really reccomend you go see your doctor, or a school councillor.

If you dont feel your ready for that just yet, maybe you could try some dirstraction techniques? Snap a rubber band against your body, clutch some ice so hard it hurts, write down your thoughts and rip them up or even just scribble on yourself with a red marker pen?

Stay strong, you can beat this, its just gonna take some time.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Thanks guys. (: I do know I have a problem, and I'm seeing a Psychologist twice a week. Even though it's not helping seeing him. Everything is going down hill so fast and I don't know how to control myself from self harm. I know it's going to take a while to get better. But I'm scared, I won't ever be fixed.

[Njathind]

You shuldnt be scared hun, everything and everone can be fixed, you just gotta know how :hug: