Feeling completely stuck.

[StrawberryCyanide]

So here's what's happened. I have a wonderful friend called Sora, she's young, beautiful, talented, brave and insanely compassionate. She lived in Spain with her father but traveled back to Japan (She's Japanese) to visit her mother in Sendai. She and her mother were in Sendai when the tsunami struck. She was put on the missing list but no one has heard anything since.

I pretty much knew from the beginning that there wasn't much hope, but since they never found her dead or alive, I kind of decided she was okay, just lost somewhere or stranded or something.

I don't know how to feel. I want to be hopeful but it's been so long i know in my heart that she must be gone. But I can't seem to accept it as there's no facts to back it up. It's really difficult to explain, I just feel like i'm stuck between emotions and i want to feel one way or the other instead of swinging between the two.

Does anyone else know what i mean? Or how to fix it? It's driving me up the wall as i want to grieve for her but i can't because i don't know for sure! Help?

Thanks guys, as always <3

[Philleeep]

Omg this guy is everywhere, ignore him he is here to troll. There isn't much you can do, just hope. Even if she didn't make it, im sure you were a very good friend to her and would she want you to be stuck in this position, you can grieve in the fact you still have no news, just keep your hope there and when she does reappear you will be delighted to see/hear from her xxx <3