I'm back and even worse!

[WackyZacky95]

Hi: just reposting for those who missed my last post

For the past two months I have been incredibly confused over my sexuality! Before these 2 months, I had always liked girls and even had a couple of girlfriends. I don;t know why these thoughts have passed over me, they are making me feel really guilty and the thought of being gay does not appeal to me, I have always classed myself as straight.

I am extremely worried because these thoughts of whether I'm straight or not are just constantly in my mind, and I hate it, it makes me feel so angry and really worried! It's not like I'm homophobic, I just do not want to be gay, or even bisexual:/

Sorry I just reposted that for those who did not see my recent post.

My case has got worse as I have now being questioning whether I am emotionally attracted to girls and I convince myself I am - until the next hour, where these thoughts repeat themselves. I seriously want to be straight when I exit puberty, I am getting more and more anxious again. Still wondering if anyone can help any further? Thankyou

[TheGreenTomato]

There's nothing wrong with showing your true feelings for both genders. U obviously like girls n you r interested in men. Which is fine. This doesn't mean ur gay or bi u cud just b a little curious. It's what we all go through during puberty. I'm bi n I love it but if ur just curious then ur just curious! U don't have to label yourself! Hope it helped<3

[WackyZacky95]

I hope I am curious, do you think it could be hormones as well?

Also, I don't know if I would be bi-sexual, because I don't think I am emotionally attracted to men, I really don;t get this

[TheGreenTomato]

And it cud just be hormones. You'll never know till u try it!

[WackyZacky95]

tried what

[Mynameisconner]

Relax is the best advice for this :). You're young, your sexuality never has to become concrete. If it makes you uncomfortable avert it, and when you begin to worry, put your mind at ease knowing that you have all the time in the world, and you wont let yourself do anything that you wouldn't want to happen.

[Callum.95]

I want to be straight so bad as well:L

[WackyZacky95]

I can't relax! It's awful and I just want to be straight so bad

[Abigballofdust]

There's something I don't understand: what makes you think you MIGHT be gay? Do you have any attraction towards men? Do you end up watching gay porn or is it just a fear that has grown into you? I mean, did you just wake up one morning and asked yourself 'What if I turn out gay?' or do you have any proof you're turning gay?
Because I deduce from your nick that you're 15/16, sexuality dilemmas should've quited down if not disappeared already...

[WackyZacky95]

It is literally just a fear that's got into me, I came home from school one day and I thought what If I'm gay, and it's stuck ever since, no I don't get turned on by men I don't think, and yes I'm 15, what do you mean quited down? I'm late in puberty I tihnk

[Abigballofdust]

It is literally just a fear that's got into me, I came home from school one day and I thought what If I'm gay, and it's stuck ever since, no I don't get turned on by men I don't think, and yes I'm 15, what do you mean quited down? I'm late in puberty I tihnk

I guess it's only a fear and you should cross over. You've had girlfriends, right? I think you're not gay.
I mean, it's just questioning you're going through currently but if you have no proof you're gay then you probably aren't.
Also, homosexual is not something you become, it's more something you're born with or grows up in your first 2 years.
It's high unlikely you're gonna turn gay right now, at 15, when even before, you had relationships with girls :P

[WackyZacky95]

Ive had two.but when I was like 11-12 haha and I hope it is something your born with, as Isaid its only past 7 weeks and I still think Im straighbut these thoughts doubt this. Also what do u mean proof?

[Abigballofdust]

Also what do u mean proof?

Something that proves you're gay. Like being aroused by men, having the urge to watch gay porn, wanting a relationship with a man...

[WackyZacky95]

I had the urge to watch gay porn like 6 months ago.for like a week but stopped because I felt guilty afterwards, i.dont have the other two, but I looked on other peoples problems and it says gay porn doesnt make u gay

[Abigballofdust]

I had the urge to watch gay porn like 6 months ago.for like a week but stopped because I felt guilty afterwards, i.dont have the other two, but I looked on other peoples problems and it says gay porn doesnt make u gay

As you said, watching gay porn doesn't make you gay.
Also, you may simply be bisexual?

[WackyZacky95]

I.dont want to be either

[Abigballofdust]

I.dont want to be either

That unfortunately isn't avoidable.
You'll have to take what life gives you and enjoy any moment.
See the fact you may be bisexual as a gift more than a curse.
There are people stuck to one sex, while you can enjoy both...
You think I'm happy to be gay? I'd rather date a girl, you know? It's just I simply can't...

[WackyZacky95]

I thought you said you thought I was not gay, as it's something your born with, wouldn't that be the same for bisexuality?

[Aliasing]

Your misunderstanding the situation Wacky.
As a gay person myself, I have no interest in the female gender whatsoever.
However what your experiencing is basically your Hormones being douchebags.

If you suddenly became "afraid" of being a homosexual, as though it's a disease. Your both Misinformed and experiencing some form of Paranoia.

What was the root of the thought, "What if I'm gay?"

I mean if your life as a straight person was all dandy until that thought. Your just experiencing your Hormones going crazy at what you see.

Also their is as much guilt involved in watching gay porn as masturbating. So don't feel guilty if your trying something out.

(Also it seems your distress has in turned, made you ASK us whether you are gay or not. It isn't something you can be told, it's what you feel inside)

[WackyZacky95]

I dont know I just came home one day and thought what if Im gay? And yes I was the 'perfect' straight guy before this, so you would just say its raging hormones?

[Aliasing]

Yes, I would. And I am sure quite a few people will too.

Don't worry though, you can go back to being your hypothetical "Perfect" straight person. Just wait it out

[WackyZacky95]

ok thankyou, I hope it is and knowing my luck the wait will be a year or two