Black and White war

[FearsomeEnder]

Unlike most people i dont cut my wrist or hurt myself phisically Its all mentally im my head i keep telling myself im a waste of space and i have no purpose in live that i will never achieve what i want to be in life because im a lazy fatass and not even god can save you from yourself... in a few seconds this post turned into a rant about myself and now i want to die... but then i whould know that thats the pussy way out and if i kill myself ill even achieve less then what i can. for me its a whole black and white war on one side i see myself as a useless human wanting to die on the other i think of myself as wuss going out the easy way...

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Have u tried talking to someone about this? I kinda get this way to,half of me is a disgusting worthless useless little bitch,that needs to put down the f*cking fork,and the other half of me is in horror how I could let things get so bad,and wants out,but then my thoughts faid back into the hate. Its a relentless cycle that you need to break. Maybe write down your feelings,and see if you can find a trigger to either your "black" or "white" thinking process?

[FullyAlive]

I think its actually quite easy to let yourself get like that, telling yourself that you aren't good enough, yet when you are thinking rationally you realise no one is that worthless, especially not yourself. Its like two extremes and you just need to be able to balance them. I really think as has been suggested talking to someone could really help you out. Would you be willing to consider it?

[DJZS]

I know how you feel. i really think you should talk about everyhting that is bothering you with someone. Im always here if you'd like, and my contact info is on my profile. Just try to stay strong, im sure your an amazing guy.

[Veto]

I cut and do that

[Amaryllis]

Sometimes I feel like crap. Like I should just drown and die, that I should starve, that I'm useless, fat, ugly, that nobody will love me. Then there's this part of me that says "No. You deserve better. You're kind, smart, talented. You can beat it. You're worth it."

We have 2 voices. We choose which we listen to. What we think the most, we become. So next time that voice says "I'm a useless low-life. What's the point in me staying here? I'll never achieve anything.", tell yourself "I don't know that. I don't know how many lives I'm gonna touch. I don't know what's going to happen. I deserve a chance."

You are the master of your life. Make the most of who you are, for that is all there is of you.

Feel free to talk to. Email, PM, IM, anything :) If you need help fighting the bad voice, each time that black voice hits you, type down everything it's saying and send it to me. I'll be your white voice assistant. You're not any of those things, not if you don't want to be.

Faith And Trust

[FearsomeEnder]

Have u tried talking to someone about this? I kinda get this way to,half of me is a disgusting worthless useless little bitch,that needs to put down the f*cking fork,and the other half of me is in horror how I could let things get so bad,and wants out,but then my thoughts faid back into the hate. Its a relentless cycle that you need to break. Maybe write down your feelings,and see if you can find a trigger to either your "black" or "white" thinking process?

I want to be ignorant and say that the trigger to all this madness in my mind is because of a "chamical imbalance in my brain" but... i think thats bs i cant think of a trigger and ive recently talked to a few people about it i feel better :3