I hate you.

[1_21Guns]

Fine, you caught me. I miss him, I miss my dad. Why is it whenever I get like this, he’s always the root of the problem. I hate you, I absolutely fucking hate you. Yet somehow, I still manage to miss the shouting, the names, the abuse. My childhood. You ruined so much, you ruined me. And here I am, half in tears because of you again. I swore you’d never bother me again, not after the look you gave me this morning. It wasn’t love I saw in your eyes, I’ve had to cut my grandparents out because of you. I’ve cut people who care so much about me, perhaps even yourself because of what you did. It crushes me to think I could be so cold to just drop half my family, drop my own name. Then I remember you’re why I’m so cold. As soon as I feel better, you come and fuck it all up again. You’re the reason I can’t bare my legs, the reason I ever made that first stupid fucking cut. The reason I wanted to die since I was 8 fucking years old, the reason I still wish I was dead because your DNA runs through me, your blood. You’re dead inside, you haunt me like some crazed ghost. You won’t let me rest. Why didn’t you listen to mum, she tried to fucking tell you, but no. You’d rather destroy your own daughter instead. I hate you. So. Fucking. Much. Fuck you Brian, fuck you.

[-]Atleast you’ve been more careful rubbers don’t split since, eyy.[/-]

[sarah newman]

Wow, thats some disturbing and nasty phrases there. Im sorry but if you wouldn't mind telling me, did your dad abuse you? Because if he did and you just got rid of him, you need to either blank him completely or get the police involved. But I'm really sorry to hear you had to go through that. Always here if you need to talk x

[TheMatrix]

Although this may just be pixels on a screen, I hope this offers some consolation:
:hug:

I feel bad for you. No really, I do.

I recommend reporting this to the police, and get a restraining order. Stay with your friends or other nice family if you can. But you must get out.
My condolences :(

[Twistember]

I feel the exact same way about my father. I'm sorry things turned out the way they did :(

[DoctorWho]

Well did he abuse you cause then the cops need to get into this matter

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I understand what ur going threw,my father broke me,and killed me inside,because of him half of my family wont even talk to me. I know how much it hurts. I feel the exact same way as u do. But honestly,if hes hurting u this much,u need to either drop him out of ur life completely,or get the law involved. I let my father win. And it destroys me inside,because only three people know the truth of what he really did all those years behind closed doors,and everyone else is blinded to his sick twisted nature. Im telling u as someone whos in the same place as u,dont let him win. Dont let him get away with it. U need to take control,and not let him dominate ur life. Yes,its totally easier said then done,but in the long run,it will give u something to hang on to,when thoughts and memories invaid ur mind. If u ever wanna talk,u can PM me whenever. : )