Just cut too deep...

[Aceso]

Okay
Cut the deepest I've ever gone, and it's just broken all the layers of skin. It's on my upper left quadrant of my abdomen, about two inches below my bra line. What's freaking me out is if I open it up slightly to inspect it, There is mostly skin but something else in the cut...the only way to describe how it looks is a bit like a part of a brain.
It's not what I would call bleeding, more leaking. Not even that really. I can't feel anything either.
No idea on what to do. I see my boyfriend on Friday, could ask him to take me to a&e then. Or I see my counsellor Wednesday I think. :/ But gaaah that might be problematic.
>.<
And I still want to go deeper, make it bigger.
Fucking hell, I need some help/advice. :(

[Veto]

I'd put a bandage with gase on it tight and see a dr

[Aceso]

I'd put a bandage with gase on it tight and see a dr

I have no dressings, no antiseptic, nothing. Literally I have kitchen roll and that's it. :/

[Veto]

Ok antiseptic is a necessity I have emt parents so I know the cut will heal faster better les ichy

[PartyPoison]

I'd say you need stitches, go to the ER

[Veto]

Right the er Cuz Thay won't press her parents to put her in hospit?

[MysticalBurrito]

I know how you feel, I did almost the same on my upper arm 2 years ago on new years eve. If you can, make a makeshift bandage out of toilet paper and tape (If it will stick) and before you put it on wash the cut with very little soap and water. IF you have any I recommend rubbing alcohol it will burn but it cleans it a whole lot better. If you can't make it to the doctor anytime soon, make sure you keep it clean and change the bandage. I would recommend that you get to the doctor soon though. Do you have any older adult you can go to for these self harm issues? Maybe a school counselor?

[AllThatYouDreamed]

Best case scenario, hospital, when you posted this.

That cut needs to be closed, do you have tape to make butterfly bandages? (Honestly, I'd use duct tape if I were you)

I *believe* you're down to subcutaneous fat (basically body's insulation), which means that's a really deep cut.

Wenseday will be too late for stitches normally, but at a hospital it can be dressed properly and you'll be told how to treat it to prevent infection.

[PartyPoison]

Best case scenario, hospital, when you posted this.

That cut needs to be closed, do you have tape to make butterfly bandages? (Honestly, I'd use duct tape if I were you)

I *believe* you're down to subcutaneous fat (basically body's insulation), which means that's a really deep cut.

Wenseday will be too late for stitches normally, but at a hospital it can be dressed properly and you'll be told how to treat it to prevent infection.

Duct tape is a terrible idea because the adhevsive can get in the cut and get it infected.

[Wicked_Syn]

Duct tape is a terrible idea because the adhevsive can get in the cut and get it infected.

Not if there is a big enough surface area of toilet paper.

[PartyPoison]

Not if there is a big enough surface area of toilet paper.

The best thing to do is go to the hospital

[Wicked_Syn]

The best thing to do is go to the hospital

Absolutely. Even though, I'd make a makeshift band aid until then.

[Aceso]

Thanks guys, I used a wad of kitchen roll and tied a belt around it to keep it in place. I found a few tiny plasters and have tried to cover it just to stop the far/puss/plasma/blood leaking through onto my uniform. :/
Yeah, tomorrow I'm pretty sure I'll tell my CAMHS worker. It's about 2 inches long but it's definitely broken all the skin layers.

[love is louder]

I have no dressings, no antiseptic, nothing. Literally I have kitchen roll and that's it. :/

you really should have stuff like this in case this kind of thing happens.

[Aceso]

you really should have stuff like this in case this kind of thing happens.

I know I should, but I don't get an allowance and I've used up everything else. I don't usually plan or prepare when I cut though and I can usually deal with them using bandages and kitchen roll, however like I said, I went deeper for that for the first time.

[Veto]

Why did u go deeper if u don't mind asking

[Aceso]

Why did u go deeper if u don't mind asking

Because I was feeling more suicidal, more fucked up and more depressed than I have in a long time. The worse I feel the deeper I get and this is only just starting...now I know I can do this I'm concerned I'll start doing it more.... I hate this, but I need it right now. It's the only thing that's helping me stop myself from trying suicide again. :(