I can't seem to feel anything but anger and depression

[Redemptive]

Well, the title says it all. At the slightest provocation I will get incredibly angry and/or very depressed. It's nothing I can help or do anything about and I just feel as though everything is just pointless. Nothing I do seems to make me happy and everything that used to just isn't the same anymore. I used to have an incredibly strong passion for music and the guitar that would always keep me happy but lately that has been waning. Apparently, I have shown a sense of self loathing since I was 5 or so but since then I feel as though it has grown to something overpowering that I just can't fight anymore. Two years ago I attempted suicide because I just couldn't cope with it. I had two therapy sessions after that but i just told them i felt better because i couldn't deal with the therapy. No matter how hard I try I can never see the positive in things. I have a girlfriend who I spend plenty of time with but lately I have lost intrest in her and everyone else. I also really have no interest in sex anymore. I have contemplated suicide again but the thought of failing again is stopping me. Every day is the same thing, just a dead end existance. There must be an answer and I thank anyone who tries to help me find it.

[DJZS]

can you tell me how old you are?
And, why couldnt you deal with the therapy?

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Maybe u should talk to someone about this? Why couldnt u handle therapy? I get it can be really hard to talk about ur problems with someone,but they can give u an insight u might not beable to see for urself. Ive had a self loathing problem from about that age to,for multiple reasons I wont get into,but it is possible to get help,if u leave it,chances are,it will just get worse,dont let this consume u.

[disassociation2016]

From my point of view I'd say you ought to look at the bright side of things. Now you may not be the most amazing individual in the world, but you're still fortunate that you have a girlfriend are are able to presue your intrests. Some don't have this... Try to be more positive.

[zuluman78]

I think it would help to talk to some about this and just let it all out, or do something to express your anger in a controlled environment- i use boxing, helps me get loose. Or dig deeper into your music, let your anger be your muse and express what you feel through it.

You need to spend sometime alone and try find the positive aspects of life and appreciate what you do have. If you cant live for yourself, live for others :D use what you have in life and try to help others who have it worse than you.

Good luck :D