Need to get this out

[Jimmy Page]

In October 2010 i was introduced to a gay friend of my cousin(love her and hate her for it) cause she though we fit good togethe .She was right,the moment we met it instantly "clicked" and we started having webcam dates(he was closeted) every second weekends when i was at my dads where i have free computer time.After 3 weeks of "dating" on cam and texting 24/7 we became boyfriends,i was walking on clouds during the time,everything was wonderful.until 4th January(two days after my 14th birthday) when he fled home(he was bullied alot and cut but tried to stop with my help,i took all sharp objects he could use to cut from him),i started worrying about what was going to happen to him(i automatically think the worst),my worst fears turned out to be right,7th January the police found him in the woods with his wrists slashed open with a knife he had made in school.I was devastated,i wanted to kill myself on the spot,but thanks to a friend on msn(If u read this know that i am forever thankful:)) i managed to pull through without killing myself.I started cutting myself but stopped after a week or two out of fear for my parents finding out.But my asshole classmates found out about the suicide and started using it against me to piss me off,the guy sitting next to me actually drew red strips and blood on his wrists and sat through a whole day and pretended he was cutting his wrists with his pencil,i went into a depression,stopped smiling and started harming myself again,tried to take my life at 3 occasions,all at school.I'm sorry for making this long post and for taking up your time,i just needed to get this out after having stored it inside myself for 6 months.

[Mynameisconner]

I'm so sorry to hear this! I just wanted to make sure you knew that at least 1 person read this! I have to admit it impacted me tremedously; I can't imagine what it would be like to deal with that. I hope that the inconsideration of your classmates fades away. You don't, and never will deserve that type of treatment. I hope that your (ex) boyfriend rests in peace

[Jimmy Page]

thank you:)

[Jonathon]

Note that everyone who cares on this forum is here for you. I hope that you find a small ray of light in the darkness and are able to escape from the pain and suffering. I hope the best for you, and I hope that something comes up right in this time of wrong.

[Tristin.]

i can not begin to imagine how you feel. i want you to know though, if you ever need to talk, about anything, im here for you xxxxxxx

all my love
triss
x

[Jimmy Page]

Thank you Jonathon,Connor and Tristin,ur support means alot to me.Without support from people like u,alot of people would have ended their life along time ago,including me.luckly i didnt thanks to a member on this site :)

[Jonathon]

No need to thank anyone, just realize that people everywhere care. :]

[Tristin.]

at the end of the day, if i can leave this world knowing i have helped somone, regardless of how big or small it is, i will leave happy. im here and always will be xxx

[Jimmy Page]

Beautifully said Tristin :)

[Mynameisconner]

I want to thank you as well; you gave me a lot of appreciate towards my own life because of everything you've endured. You have got to be a strong person to have the motivation to keep moving forward. You've impacted me.

[Wicked_Syn]

So sorry to hear about this man. I've been bullied a lot when I was a younger kid and it hurt. People called me nasty names and it just hurt. Just because someone may be fat, un-attractive, insecure, tall, short, black, brown doesn't give another human being the right to tease them about their flaw(s)

I hope you can continue to stay strong and keep away from the cutting. Please, if you need anything, PM me.

[DJZS]

i'll always be here if you need to talk.

[Solvez18]

that is so sad!

[crazyhyperway]

im so sorry for what happened!

like everyone said are here for you and if you need someone to talk to I will gladly do that :)

[Donkey]

Please don't bump old threads. :locked: