Stopped Therapy

[schrei jess]

Ive finally gotten my mom to allow me to stop going to therapy. Therapy is supposed to help you, but everytime I go, I end up leaving feeling worse than when I cam ein. It's like going into that office reminds me of how I really am, of how bad things have gotten. I would go every thursday after school, and it's not like I forget I have severe clinical depression, but it's like during the week, I dont notice it as much as it's with me all the time, it feels normal to be depressed. But I guess it's hard to explain what Im trying to say, but when I walk into that office, I just lock up - I cant say anything, and after the hour is up, I leave feeling hopeless again. I dreaded going to therapy knowing that nothing would come out of it, only that terrible feeling of sinking even farther away from the world. Does anyone understand what Im trying to say? I hope it makes sense enough.

Did I make the right choice by stopping therapy? It couldnt be healthy for me to end up leaving his office feeling even worse than when I came in right? Im still taking my meds and everything, although Id like to stop those too, but I couldnt handle the therapy anymore. I may start it again, with another therapist as this one isnt working for me either. Ive gone through three therapists and none of them ever worked, and Im scared that if I keep looking, Ill never find the right one. So I just wont even bother. Am I doing the right thing here?

[BillyWitchDoctor.com]

well, maybe its good that u realize everything thats wrong w/ u after the therapy because you are able to realize who u are. i think thats good becasue then u have a better chance at fixing that and finding things to do that make u not feel depressed. maybe a new therapist if the one u just left hadnt been helping anything more than u realizing who u are, but therapists are there to help. i think u should stay with it, when ur done u realize whats so "bad" about urself and u get depressed, convince urself that u now know what u need to fix and work at that

[Hyper]

Don't stop the meds.. If they aren't working for you, you have to go get new ones. If you have severe clinical then the only way you could get out of it is with the help of meds.

[Sapphire]

God, my internet is really fucked. Tried to reply yesterday, but it wouldn't let me! *grr @ my internet connection* lol

Anyway, on topic. Talking therapy does not work for everyone. It is a long process, but it should not make you feel worse. As it was making you feel bad, I am glad you stopped it.
Finding the right therapist is essential, and do not fret because there will be one that you will get along with. Trust me. I have been to see two shrinks, four psychologists and four counsellors. Out of them I think one shrink, two psychologists and one counsellor I got on with. The rest I either had blazing rows with or just didn't find them helpful. Its all a bit of trial and error. But it is worth looking, because you can learn from them all along the way.

As for the medication, do you find they help you? If you do then I would suggest that you stick with them. They can work wonders. And considering the fact you have clinical depression, this would be best.
On the other side of the coin, if the fact you are on the medication is bringing you down then stopping them would be advisable. It is all about what is right for you. I found that the fact I was on meds made me more depressed and as such I stopped them. I felt in more control of my life because I had actually been able to exercise some control over how my bipolar is treated.

Basically I am trying to say that it is down to what you find helpful and who you find it helpful with.