kinda started

[///James///]

ok, patch, cody and tim knows already that i did start cutting last week. i dont know if i would classify it as a cut, but i kinda chickened out. i found a tweezers and started scarping myself, in the end i had a scar that last the day, thats it.

and as they all know, i did nearly do it on saturday.
same reason as kevin, family (plus i was sick of being lonley, and not having what i want [materialist posessions, and alex]).

im going to try and not do it again, but i cant promise anything. life is hard, it sucks. but mabey when i come out to my friends, mabey things will get a bit easier

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

why would you do this? if you know its bad, wrong, stupid and harmful, just will yourself to sotp

[Waiting]

bah, dude you have no compassion


james man: if you ever get lonely, jus find me on msn and i put my webcasm on or somthig....there instand company....just saty away from blades

[kevin]

:hug:

I'm sorry james. I'm always here to talk with you. Just fight with yourself to stop fighting the blade. You can get through this, you're strong. Just think of all the efforts you've put into your life, why suffer that into a few scars. I can understand your point of view, because as you said, I'm there too. But we can both get through it.

Hopes.
Kevin

[Whisper]

james man: if you ever get lonely, jus find me on msn and i put my webcasm on or somthig....there instand company....just saty away from blades

Ditto, man whenever you wanna talk I'm here and although i'm not as good looking as patchy boy here if your lonley i'll turn my cam on.
I realise I didn't turn it on this morning at 4:30 when you asked and thats cause its laundry day and well........Don't ask

[Waiting]

thats cause its laundry day and well........Don't ask

that means naked cody :p :shock:

[Whisper]

thats cause its laundry day and well........Don't ask

that means naked cody :p :shock:

BAH!
Like I said I left the cam off

[///James///]

thanks everyone for your help

its kinda easier during the school week, or when im with my nephew (cos he makes me so happy)

actaully i said this to him when he was 6 months old or something (he is one nxt monday!), that I thank him so much for getting me out of suicidal thinking. I'll stay alive for you. And then he laughed, he i cute!

cody, i didnt mind when you didnt, dont feel bad!

patch, i know your always there for me (even when ur not on msn!, like now)

thanks again everyone xxxx

[Ravenous]

James im so sorry that u did it. I wish we coulda talked for longer on sat but i had to go. Im on MSN a hell of a lot so jus message me wenever ur feeling down, or up!! :P I hope this dosent become an addiction for you

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

wow..i'm sorry you started too...its sooo addicting....i don't even know what to say

[///James///]

im sorry everyobe, there is now on painful reminder of the 20th of may 2005 just underneath my sweatband on my left arm./

[-Silence]

Please don't be sorry, It's okay. :)

Can I ask what happened?
:hug:

[Waiting]

cutting sucks monkeys

[Φρανκομβριτ]

we have a deal, right James? I'm glad your doing better! I'd love to meet your nephew. He could hang out with my brother!

[grass]

how old r u punkd

[///James///]

im 14, adn u can call me james!

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

dude james i just realized Punk'd is the name of a show on mtv lol

[///James///]

lol, i knew that i never watched it, i just used it alot since i came back from new york, i was all "punk'd" up, so i just use it!

[///James///]

ok since friday it has been a week. im holding in well i might add, cut is fading

[-Silence]

Way to go!! :D

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

YAY! i'm happy for you!