Magenta
July 9th, 2011, 01:33 AM
I'm unsure where to put this so I'll explain then it can be moved.
So about an hour and a half ago, I believe I "woke up". However, I was still caught in a dream, so to speak. Things definitely were not real yet it felt like it was. Now, this is going to sound so stupid, but I was dreaming of, well, I think a VT-like forum and my head was creating these forum posts and it was almost like I was living the forum in my head. I wasn't using the forum, I was literally living the threads... It makes no sense (and yes, you may laugh now). I'm now awake completely confused and still a tad disoriented.
I was indeed awake and it was almost like hallucinating that I was living in a forum. I knew I was in my room yet... I really don't know how to explain this. I bet this post is confusing to read yet it was worse to live. Anyway, Part of me was completely convinced that I was living in this forum and there was some sort of argument happening right in front of my eyes... sort of. I have no idea what was happening. I just couldn't seem to get it out of my head. A tiny part of me said, this isn't real but the rest of me was on autopilot and said that this was definitely real. Eventually, I was fully awake somehow, forum gone, because I went downstairs to get a glass of water. I then lay in bed with the lights off when I began to feel like I was being smothered by smoke. The air felt thick and my vision was really hazy until I had to turn my light on to make sure everything was okay. I went to turn my fan on, got back into bed and have been fine since.
I have had something like this happen once before when I was sick. I was sort of still asleep, not quite awake, and according to my mother, I was rambling nonsense about how the numbers didn't add up and I wouldn't be okay because I couldn't make the numbers add up. I still vaguely remember it. This was similar. I was trying to make something specific happen (can't remember what) but it wasn't so I was getting upset.
I'm now just completely freaked out, confused and blah. Not a pleasant experience. Now, I'm also keeping in mind that I've been severely sleep deprived lately because my insomnia has come back but this was frightening and now I'm reluctant to go back to sleep. Actually, no, I'm afraid to go back to sleep because now a part of me is starting to believe there's something in my room. Fml. All I know was that this was so real and I don't know if I was dreaming or awake. It's scary not to be able to tell the difference.
Ugh. Now I'm awake on two and a half hours of sleep and I'm screwed over for today.
Sorry if that made no sense. I can barely explain it to myself let alone someone else. It lasted for about a half hour at least the first time and two minutes the second because I was fast enough to turn on the light. I know I spent a ton of time tossing and turning trying to go back to sleep...
(Been doing some googling and this could have been a hypnopompic hallucination... If that was what it was, I'm not eager to have yet another problem on top of everything else, especially one that effects the sleep I desperately need and am not getting.)
So about an hour and a half ago, I believe I "woke up". However, I was still caught in a dream, so to speak. Things definitely were not real yet it felt like it was. Now, this is going to sound so stupid, but I was dreaming of, well, I think a VT-like forum and my head was creating these forum posts and it was almost like I was living the forum in my head. I wasn't using the forum, I was literally living the threads... It makes no sense (and yes, you may laugh now). I'm now awake completely confused and still a tad disoriented.
I was indeed awake and it was almost like hallucinating that I was living in a forum. I knew I was in my room yet... I really don't know how to explain this. I bet this post is confusing to read yet it was worse to live. Anyway, Part of me was completely convinced that I was living in this forum and there was some sort of argument happening right in front of my eyes... sort of. I have no idea what was happening. I just couldn't seem to get it out of my head. A tiny part of me said, this isn't real but the rest of me was on autopilot and said that this was definitely real. Eventually, I was fully awake somehow, forum gone, because I went downstairs to get a glass of water. I then lay in bed with the lights off when I began to feel like I was being smothered by smoke. The air felt thick and my vision was really hazy until I had to turn my light on to make sure everything was okay. I went to turn my fan on, got back into bed and have been fine since.
I have had something like this happen once before when I was sick. I was sort of still asleep, not quite awake, and according to my mother, I was rambling nonsense about how the numbers didn't add up and I wouldn't be okay because I couldn't make the numbers add up. I still vaguely remember it. This was similar. I was trying to make something specific happen (can't remember what) but it wasn't so I was getting upset.
I'm now just completely freaked out, confused and blah. Not a pleasant experience. Now, I'm also keeping in mind that I've been severely sleep deprived lately because my insomnia has come back but this was frightening and now I'm reluctant to go back to sleep. Actually, no, I'm afraid to go back to sleep because now a part of me is starting to believe there's something in my room. Fml. All I know was that this was so real and I don't know if I was dreaming or awake. It's scary not to be able to tell the difference.
Ugh. Now I'm awake on two and a half hours of sleep and I'm screwed over for today.
Sorry if that made no sense. I can barely explain it to myself let alone someone else. It lasted for about a half hour at least the first time and two minutes the second because I was fast enough to turn on the light. I know I spent a ton of time tossing and turning trying to go back to sleep...
(Been doing some googling and this could have been a hypnopompic hallucination... If that was what it was, I'm not eager to have yet another problem on top of everything else, especially one that effects the sleep I desperately need and am not getting.)