Why now

[RockstarRocks]

I don't no if im wrong for filling this way. I tend to avoid thinkin about it. When It first happend I wasent embarressed about it. Here is what happend When I was 5 I was melested by this boy in my class he was 5 to. I wasent embarressed about it back then but now if it gets brought up I hate thinkin about it and im embarressed that it even happend. Some people might think im dumb for feeling that way because we was both 5 like It wasent melestashion but it was I scooted back to him cause I was 5 I never new what to do. But weird thing is I moved on. But just like 1 or 2 years ago I cant stand being poked any light tuch ticks me off. If someone taps me to get my attechion I fell mad about it because of a light tuch. I never used to feel that way. Even thinkin about someone poking or taping me saying hey makes me mad like I want to punch them but I cant because they r doing nothing wrong. Is it weird that I feel this way. After all these years I feel this way now at 17. Also my teacher saw the whole thing happen and said she never new cause i went back by him. I was 5 I was confused. My mom said when it happend I wouldent eat so she new something was wrong. I don't remember not eating. Also she said I went to a theripist one time i dont remember that ethir. Anyways I moved on so y is it now after all these years I hate being poked and tapped if someone is trying to get my attenchion.

[RockstarRocks]

I wish I never rote this. People probly think its not the same because of the age we was. Like It's not as bad because no one in my family did it. I feel people think who cares it's not a big deal like it's ok that it happend. That is probly y no one wrote back. Wish I never rote the stupid thing.

[RockstarRocks]

Can someone plz right to me. This don't rlly affect my life. I just want to no y now do I get mad if some taps me. Y now do I hate light tuches. Also I might be dateing someone and if he tuch my leg lightly or anything If I no I will get angry and not like it. And if he says he wants to date me. I rlly don't want to tell him what happend right off the bat when I was little. It might scare him off. And I no bf might put there hand on ur leg or arm lightly and It bugs me thinkin about it. I don't want to fell this way if I he says yes to dateing me. I rlly don't want to fell like I have to tell him what happend when I was little right off the bat.

[Njathind]

Hmmmm I would say it sounds like your still troubled by what happened to you when you were 5. Is there not a councilor at school you could go and see, I dunno maybe just talking to someone might help you :confused:

They do say that you can be fine at the time of a traumer but in later life it can come back to bite you in the ass as it were.

With regards your prospective Boyfriend, I think you right not to tell him straight of the bat, although he might get a bit funny when he tries to get intimate with you. If thats the case then just tell him you not used to it, if he loves you he should understand. And then maybe when the times right you could tell him about what happened.

I hope this helps you, much love Nat :hug:

[RockstarRocks]

Well I'm not dateing yet. I just hope when I get a bf i'm ready because I'm trying to date someone. But nevermind don't reply back plz thanx for ur help. I just rlly don't want to talk about it its stupid. I may not get mad if a boy gets intement with me but idn I might. Anyways nevermind just don't right back i'm so embarressed that I wrote this. I should of just kept it to myself srry.

[Njathind]

Well I'm not dateing yet. I just hope when I get a bf i'm ready because I'm trying to date someone. But nevermind don't reply back plz thanx for ur help. I just rlly don't want to talk about it its stupid. I may not get mad if a boy gets intement with me but idn I might. Anyways nevermind just don't right back i'm so embarressed that I wrote this. I should of just kept it to myself srry.

You shouldnt feel embarressed, look if you wanna talk just pm or e-mail me okay :hug: And your not stupid ;)

[RockstarRocks]

I no I'm not stupid. It's just a embarressing thing to talk about. But thanx anyway :]. I don't blame myself for it. I just blame my self for getting mad easy over the stuff I said I get mad about. I blame my self for making it a big deal when it's probly not. I blame myself for talking about it bringing it up and even thinking about it.