Deeper

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Lately,ive been finding more and more cuts on my arm,and for whatever reason if there not deep,I get annoyed. If shes gunna do it,she might as well do it right. I know im falling deeper into my hole of depression. And I honestly,cant seem to make myself care. Its our body,we should beable to do whatever the hell we want. Why should anyone be aloud to take it from us? Its not like shes doing it to someone else. Im tired of trying to get help,and it not work or blow up in my face. I might as well,just give up. If you want something done right,do it yourself. But I cant. Part of me is pulling to keep trying to get help,get better,start living. But im sinking deeper and deeper,and that little voice is starting to faid. Im stuck,and utterly,screwed.

[Lighto]

i was there..just where you are now...i sank deeper...started using drugs..9 months of my life..i cant even remember it existing...everything was the same..everyday repeated...lost my friends..couldnt keep away from razors..cuts got deeper and deeper...until one day...it was about 2 years ago...it was just an ordenary day...i went to the city..wondered aimlessly..and i started to see...started to see the joys of life...all the people there were normal, happy...and i said to myself...I WANT THAT TOO!...took myself together and stopped cutting...gave up drugs...i got my friends back and here i am now...looking at my scars i still get down...but when i do...i like to think that there are others like me out there...and if they can deal with them...then so can i..you need to be strong...and find your way out of this circle of pain and misery...be strong and live your life..we all have been trough it...i know that you can get trough too.

[morbidmonkey]

I felt myself falling too...but it was very brief and I pulled myself together. I haven't stopped but its not as bad was it used to be. You have to consider the good things in life. Find something to look forward to. If you feel the urge, distract yourself. It helps me.

[Gigibabe13]

I use 2 cut myself all the time and I never thought it was a bad thing, if it dosent kill u and u dont make a mess with the blood then were is the harm with it., If u want 2 cut urself because u need 2 let some pain, replace the emotional pain with psyhisical pain because for one, skin will grow back & 2, psyhisical pain goes away sometimes emotional pain stays for a much longer. P.S.I'm not suggesting it's good for others like saying "Go for it, yeah!" because thats just wrong!

[xdancing_for_rainx]

As a lot of people have said, I can relate to what you're saying :/ That's sorta how I am sometimes. It's like, nothing is ever good enough... there's not enough damage. Not a good feeling at all >.< Do you think there's something you could do to prevent yourself from cutting when you want to? Sometimes I find that getting out of the place I'm in can help, or listening to music. I know it's tough to find any motivation when you want to cut... and I wish I had some better advice to give. Just hope you're alright; Hang in there- I'm sure things will get better.

[georgiamay]

Like a lot of things, self harm escalates. Like drugs, you start on "soft" drugs, and move on to the harder stuff. With self harm it's common for people to start with little scratches that only just break the skin, and it gradually gets worse, and eventually they're going so deeper and deeper each time, and little surface cuts don't do anything anymore, you have to go quite deep to get any "satisfaction" from it at all. I've been there, I know what you mean.

If you really want to get help, then don't give up trying to find it. Could you go and see your doctor? You don't live in the UK, so I don't know if you can just call up and make an appointment, but it's worth a try.

If you stop trying to get help, then you won't be able to get out of the cycle that you hate so much.

Good luck hun, I'm always here if you need someone. :hug:

[beag_amhain]

i know exactly how you feel hun, jus think of the good times you have had, i find it helps, write n draw about what ever your thinking, it really helps me and try to stay around people, try not to stay alone the whole time, no matter how badly you want to, force yourself to be around others

im here if you need me hun =]