Again

[Charlotte93]

I don't know what happened, I was doing really good for a while but i just kind of got sad today and well i realized a partial truth. I have noone. I was thinkin about cutting and i was thinking of talking to someone who could help me calm down and think rationaly but i had noone to talk to and now i have to start all over again. I cant believe i gave up on myself like that, the whole time i had the blade i couldn't even stop for myself, because i didn't want to stop for myself, ya know, it's like i didn't stop for myself because i didn't want to stop. I feel like i deserv it.

[Fiction]

I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to stop, about feeling like you deserve it but the truth is you don't. No one deserves this.

I've said this quote a thousand times, but that's because it's true. You don't fail when you slip up, you fail when you give up. We all make mistakes, we all slip up sometimes but it's getting through it, and picking yourself back up that matters.

There will always be people who care however much you feel like there isn't. I care. You can always talk to me, my contact details are on my profile or you can PM or VM me :)

[georgiamay]

I get what you're saying about not wanting to stop. I couldn't imagine my life without it for a very long time. You might feel like you deserve it, but you don't. No one deserves to feel like that.

The only reason we fall is so we can learn to pick ourselves back up again. It doesn't matter how many times we fall, or how far we fall, as long as we learn to get back up again. And if you try, eventually you'll be able to stop, and you'll want to, when you realise that you don't deserve this, and that there are other ways to cope.

You aren't alone, everyone here is there for you :hug3: If you ever need to talk to someone about this kind of stuff, you can always post here, and someone will try and help, because we care.

PM me anytime, I'm always here :hug: