Do You Hit Yourself?

[Ambrosia]

I've gone about two weeks now, I believe, without cutting myself. Hardest thing I've done in a while. But I can't get past this need to hurt myself in some way when it comes down to these damned emotions. I'll try and control myself, stand there and think different thoughts, something, and I eventually end up punching myself as hard as possible, or punching something near by and busting my knuckles. When I was younger, before I began cutting, I would hit myself when I was upset.

Anyone else find themselves doing this, in place of cutting?

[morbidmonkey]

actually when i was younger and i was angry or upset i would bang my head against a wall or the floor, not bad enough to make it bleed but until it was numb. i didnt really know what self injury was then but it sure get rid of the pain. now instead of cutting i dig my nails into my skin really hard but i havent done that in a while

[Iris]

Before I started cutting I would hit myself. It was a downward spiral. Eventually hitting wasn't enough so I started cutting. Now I don't hit myself anymore though :/

[BrokenButterflies]

I used to cut, but when the wounds started getting to noticeable, I had to stop. Not to mention I hate(d) the scares that cutting leaves.
However, I've turned to hitting myself as a way of punishment for eating to much. I try not to do it to much, but sometimes...well, I just need something to make me feel better.

[Magenta]

I used to hit myself. I usually would hit my wrists against something hard or I once went out and kept slapping a concrete pole. Yeah, not one of my brightest ideas.

It never did much for me, actually. Sometimes it helps in the heat of the moment but if I'm calm enough to know I need to self-harm but still be coherent, I'll take the time to look for a blade rather than start basically throwing myself at the wall.

[ChaseThisLight]

My self harm is hitting myself. I cut myself for a period when i was younger but that was never enough really. Hitting for me provides a release. I feel all cloudy and out of control in my mind. And when the feeling becomes too much I lash out on my self. it gives me control. It grounds me. I'm not advocating it what so ever, however that's my way of coping. No scars. Just a few bruises.

Unfortunately I went through a phase a few months ago of slamming my fist on walls/my desk. While I gained a similar feeling i managed to shatter bones in my hand. I stopped hitting other things.

Hitting helps me.

[1_21Guns]

Yeah that became my technique to stop a while back, but I used to punch myself a lot anyway, I wasn't up for explaining a bust knuckle, so I mainly stuck to hitting myself but I've been known to punch walls and tables, even at school before.
The unfortunate thing is, it's still causing deliberate harm to yourself, so maybe it's not cutting, but it's still self harm

[Amaryllis]

After anorexia took over my life, I pretty much stopped cutting. Now however, I hit myself and others and things. I bash my head on Walls and tell people I've tripped and Ive broken doors kicking them, I punch walls and literally throw myself around the room/car.

My worse panic attack was when I was in a car and I just flipped(I'm bipolar and I wanted food. I know. It's insane) I threw myself around the car while it was moving on the highway. Kicked the chairs till they broke, punched the doors till my fists bled and finally threw myself out the car door while it was driving at 180km per hour. How I survived, I do not know. Sometimes I wonder if that was a good or bad thing. my mom was crying the whole time and screaming.

Okay back to you. It doesn't matter how dangerous the form of self harm is. What matters is the reason for it and the intention behind it. We should honestly try to stop. Will get back to you once I do. But I cope with my need to destroy by dancing or running. I just went berserk in the car cause I could do neither. Anyway, try it

[Fiction]

I used to do it when I first started cutting, when I was at school and had no places. I actually ended up giving myself ligamentitus in my wrist and managed to cover it up saying I "walked into a table". I have urges to do it now, instead of cutting. I guess though with cutting it's about the blood and the pain. With hitting myself it's more.. taking anger at myself out on myself. It's a slightly different type of release. Although I can use cutting to get the same release as hitting.. I don't know if that makes any sense :P

[georgiamay]

Firstly, well done on 2 weeks :hug3:

I used to hit myself a lot. If I didn't have a blade or something like that, I'd just punch my legs or arms or something. It wasn't the same and cutting, I didn't get the same feeling. It got my frustration out, which is why I did it, but the feeling I get from cutting, I can only get from cutting, hitting doesn't do it for me. I haven't self harmed in quite a while now, but I know that cutting was always my "favourite" if you can call it that.

[Spook]

I have not experienced self harm in the way of cutting, but when I get VERY angry I will start hitting myself and banging against walls or something.

I think it is much less dangerous and scarring than cutting, so it is a step down, which is very good. Stay strong! :)

[CyanideGoodnight]

I occasionaly hit myself, but bite myself more then I do hit myself. However, it's a different release then cutting, cutting mainly releases anger, but usually with hitting/biting myself I would mainly be releasing anxiety.

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Yeah i've hit myself. When i get really angry with myself.

For me cutting is quite a delicate process as i have a small blade and don't want to slip. I hit myself when i just cant control myself enough to cut. Crazy i know.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Yea,when im really mad at myself and I cant cut or burn, i either punch myself,something else or slam my head againest the wall,but idunno if that counts. Heh. When I was little i would do it all the time,but then it progressed into something more extreme...

[Twistember]

When I was little, I used to get my anger out by hitting myself, biting myself, pinching myself, pulling on my hair, and sometimes pulling out my hair.

But now, I've graduated to cutting. I sometimes still hit myself and bite myself though.

[love is louder]

i have done once or twice but the bruises, although easier to explain, attracted a lot more attention that the cutting did :/ so i give up with that and just kept cutting but if im really really upset i do it.

[MadManWithaBox]

Yeah, busted my hand a couple of times :( but a broken hand is hard to conceal than anything else, so I stopped.

[The Dudeh]

It's not as 'good' (for want of a better word) as cutting but occasionally I do punch or slap myself. I don't really know why, I just do it if it feels right.

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I've tried hitting myself in place of cutting before... but it doesn't give as much satisfaction to me; and I don't ever feel that I do the "right" amount of damage to myself that I think I deserve >.< So yeah, I do it periodically... just not my preferred thing.

[Eagle63]

I don't cut, but when I'm mad at myself, I either punch stuff or just lay in bed and kick myself.

[AllThatYouDreamed]

I manage to pull more "stupid accidents" when I haven't cut but feel a need too (crashing into shit when I'm normally more graceful, jumping a little too far, things like that)

But yeah, pain plays a huge role for some people. Keep yourself safe

[Veto]

Yes I hit myself I have people hit me its better than gouging my arms open