It's coming back.

[1_21Guns]

I'm back to skipping lunch, I don't even know why but this is how it all started in the first place. I don't have a 'perfect weight' to aim to anymore, because I haven't weighed myself in so long. Now, I just want to destroy myself, rot away like I feel like I should. I'd started feeling better about myself, then boom. For no reason I don't want to eat lunch anymore, and I'm back to pretending. I want to say it worries me, that I'm bothered that I'm not free, but I knew I wasn't, and I don't think I ever will be. I just seem to be constantly on a path of self destruction, and it's not going to be long before I'm back on the scales trying to go lower than ever...

[georgiamay]

Now, I just want to destroy myself, rot away like I feel like I should.

Nat :hug:

I know you won't believe me, but you really don't deserve to rot away. You're a lovely person, and so many people care about you, so you shouldn't rot away, it's be awful if you did.

I think it's a good thing that you haven't weighed yourself in a while. Once you start you weigh yourself, that's when the obsession starts. I know that you don't want that to happen. Please try and stay away from the scales, because it's just a downward spiral from then on once you know your exact weight.

I know you feel like you'll never be free, but it is possible, you can beat this. I think you need help to get you through this though. Maybe it's time you go and see your GP? I know you've said a few times that you wanted to, but I think it's time to actually go through with it now.

You know where I am if you need me, yeah? :hug3:

[1_21Guns]

Too late about the scales thing, did it this morning :P but yeah, hasn't backtracked me like I thought it would which is good.
Perhaps so Georgia, I just don't have the balls I guess :/
:hug3: you too

[Love.Hate]

Too late about the scales thing, did it this morning :P but yeah, hasn't backtracked me like I thought it would which is good.


Can you not get someone to hide them?

And its good it hasnt backtracked you i guess. Nat are you speaking to anyone? You cant go there again.

:hug:

[1_21Guns]

Can you not get someone to hide them?

And its good it hasnt backtracked you i guess. Nat are you speaking to anyone? You cant go there again.

:hug:

I live alone with my mother, who is on a diet, so no :P

and about the ED, as in professionally? No, I've skipped lunch twice now but then I just eat a load of crap (I currently have an addiction to shortbread biscuits 'cause I'm craving them due to monthly bodily functions and suchlike) so yeah I don't know, I know it's coming back but I've been trying to compromise with it

[Love.Hate]

I live alone with my mother, who is on a diet, so no :P

and about the ED, as in professionally? No, I've skipped lunch twice now but then I just eat a load of crap (I currently have an addiction to shortbread biscuits 'cause I'm craving them due to monthly bodily functions and suchlike) so yeah I don't know, I know it's coming back but I've been trying to compromise with it

Well i guess all you can do is keep trying then, keep eating those biscuits :P

Maybe you should talk to a proffesional then? To stop it from coming back

[1_21Guns]

Well i guess all you can do is keep trying then, keep eating those biscuits :P

Maybe you should talk to a proffesional then? To stop it from coming back

Joke of the year that one, I won't do it for some reason, I should see a professional for a lot of mental problems I'm aware I might have, and I know and achknowledge this, yet still won't do it, so y'know, one day I guess

[Love.Hate]

Well you should, at least try?

I hope that one day is soon :)

[1_21Guns]

Well you should, at least try?

I hope that one day is soon :)

I am, it'll be fine :)