B day cutting

[Veto]

Sa my birthday moves closer I want to cut more cuz I hate b days and it makes me wanna cut not that I already want to just makes it even more

[Triceratops]

Why do you hate birthdays? Birthdays are awesome.

[morbidmonkey]

i hate my birthday. i want to get excited about how awesome its gonna be but there is always something that fucks it up. everyone want to be around me but i just want to be alone. i cant take the disappointment

[Iris]

i hate my birthday. i want to get excited about how awesome its gonna be but there is always something that fucks it up. everyone want to be around me but i just want to be alone. i cant take the disappointment

same.

Try lowering your expectations on your birthday so you don't get disappointed.

[aleexax3]

be happy that your here dont cut and birthdays are amazing

[morbidmonkey]

same.

Try lowering your expectations on your birthday so you don't get disappointed.
yeah i do lower them but when i do people tend to suck the fun outta the little bit i had left....what a life....

[Triceratops]

^^^ What a bundle of joy you are...

[SosbanFach]

What a bundle of joy you are...

Can you at least attempt to say something helpful? Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit.

[Triceratops]

Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit.

Lol says who?

What I'm seeing here is nothing more than self-pitying behaviour.

everyone want to be around me but i just want to be alone.

She says people around her want to spend time with her, but she wants to shut them out. Is there even a good reason for this?

[1_21Guns]

I cut on my 16th birthday, because it was my birthday. And wanna know what it helped? Nothing. How about how much better it made the day seem? It didn't. I have a bunch of scars and for what? The past.
Over time you'll learn that everyone will disappoint you at some time, but you can come back stronger from it, even if it does seem like effort and a waste, it isn't.
I'm presuming being let down is what makes you want to isolate yourself, so nobody can let you down?
It gets easier, you just have to give it time, chin up :hug3:

[love is louder]

i HATE my birthday! but i think its mainly because i hate being centre of attention whether its good or bad i try my best to stay in the background. for my birthday this year i pretty much didn't leave my bed. (sad i know but i hate the fuss).
Remember its YOUR birthday so it should be YOUR decision on what you do
and dont worry about something that is inevitable just deal with it as it comes.

[Veto]

Ya i don't know I wanna be alone but my fam will throw a surprise party even tho Thay do that every year

[Love.Hate]

Well then try to make the most of it! Cutting isn't going to improve your day. I know I was pretty miserable on my 16th cause I felt like I should have been happy. Don't force yourself to be completely out of character and happy all day. Just try to have a good day, cutting will do nothing to help you have a good day. I can assure you.

[morbidmonkey]

Lol says who?

What I'm seeing here is nothing more than self-pitying behaviour.



She says people around her want to spend time with her, but she wants to shut them out. Is there even a good reason for this?

yeah i kno it sounds like i pity myself, but i dont want to be a bother to people around me with my bad attitude. my birthday brings back bad memories that only come back on the day. i pity myself because i'm a bad person, nothing more than a taker. the sad thing is that i'm aware of it

[Veto]

Ya I suppose thanks for the input I hope I don't cut but knowing me I will not be able to stop myself even tho I've had tons of help all Thru my life

[Amaryllis]

The last birthday I had, I spent it exercising. Covered 16 bloody kilometers(literally. Blisters. Pop pop. Owww). Freaked out over half a slice of birthday cake. Calorie-counted the entire day(as usual). It was 100% horrid.

Anyway, from that day on, I swore never to waste another birthday ever, ever again. Birthdays are precious. It's the one chance you have to prove to yourself that it gets better, that each year YOU get better. You choose. People can diss, suck the life outta you, hate on you, bully, tease, crush but you are 10x stronger.

Don't kick the shoe off before it's even off. Just cause the other one's gone doesn't mean you don't need the one shoe you got too. I mean, I always thought "Hell. I've binged. Might as well devour everything!" or "I'm gonna cut today. I know it. Today's gonna suck." and "I'm so fat and ugly. No one loves me." You know what I realised when I finally started telling myself that I was gonna go with the flow? The flow wasn't so bad.

I know it's hard. I know horrid things happen. Hey, honestly, if I had a choice, I'd wish I was never born but the point is, we are. Your birthday's gonna be awesome, if it isn't, you come send me a message and rant and tell me I'm a bloody bastard. No, seriously.

Taking it out on people = Good stress relief

Do something else. Try not to cut. You are the master of your life.

Read ze signature below -v-

Faith And Trust

[Veto]

Ya I know I had like almost 200days but3days ago I blew that grrrnesss thanks but it's gonna suck balls

[Amaryllis]

No it's not. Or you could just talk to me the whole day. I don't suck balls.

[Veto]

No it's not. Or you could just talk to me the whole day. I don't suck balls.
Ok how's that I can't get flash on my iPad so I can't use the chat room provided on this web site :confused:

[Veto]

Well tonight at 2:47 in the morn I was born happy b day to me I wish I didn't exist I wish that i didn't 16 freaking years tonight I am so close first time in a long time I have felt like digging deep so deep it rips my skin open and the hot blood runs out it runs and runs till I feel lightheaded and I die till my fragile body turns in to shriveled mass of skin till I become dust I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself

[Tenoramic]

I feel u should find someone to talk to cutting is not the answer period

[Amaryllis]

Firstly, happy birthday. Second, I'm so sorry. Third, I have no right to say anything about your cutting now. I relapsed. I'm sorry. I hope it gets better. I don't know if this will help but I don't hate you. At all. It's going to be okay. Talk to me if you need to. I'm here.

[Veto]

Thanks faith and trust I made it thru the night

[Amaryllis]

Congratulations :) I'm proud of you

[Veto]

I'm so sorry you relapse I hope you didn't do anything super deep or long I hope the best for today for you and me

[Amaryllis]

Yeah me too :) You're a great person. Keep up the good work. Hold on. You have strength. I know you can do it.

Faith And Trust

[Veto]

Well I did make it I burnt myself not on purpose I was not looking where I was going I bumped in to the grill and burnt the outside of my hand I've burnt myself before 2 or 3 times but never more than that not on purpose it's never really worked for me at all but this time it worked I felt so good of cores now that it's night and I dislike night it's hard for me to sleep ectectectect blaw blaw ya so I didnt cut today or self harm on purpose it my seem like I wanted it to happen but I didn't It hurts now more than any cut does.

[Veto]

Of corse now it's night I wanna cut go fig I can make it but that night cut I haven't yet but I got my blade Ya last time I cut I used a bred knife it really hurt but ya I am a talker online I can go cuz it's thoghts but in life I'm silent my parents hate that I'll never talk much to them at all hell Thay don't know I fudged up my 200 day streak oh well Thay think I'm recovering I'm not how culd I I'm addittided to this I love it I hate it I hate me I love me why cuz I am me I am human I have hate I have love I try to x press it all the time I tag walls for the rush I'm all over

[Unsolvedmind]

i hate my birthday. i want to get excited about how awesome its gonna be but there is always something that fucks it up. everyone want to be around me but i just want to be alone. i cant take the disappointment

I know EXACTLY how you feel it happens to me ALL the TIME :D