I'm about to give up.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Every time I cut it gets deeper and deeper. I don’t know how to stop. Now I’m not only cutting but I’m burning myself too. I haven’t eaten without throwing up in three weeks. I need help. I’m admitting to it. I want help. It’s just nothing is making me get better. The Prozac is a complete joke, I feel worse instead of better. My mom doesn’t understand, and my therapist just thinks I’m insane. I shouldn’t be feeling this way. I’m 16, it’s not fair. I want my life back. I want to be normal. I don’t want to cry anymore. I don’t want to cut or burn or puke anymore. I’m tired, I just want my happy back. Nobody will ever understand.

[nnnnnnnnn9999]

hey hun. i know where you are coming from. i am a cutter and an anorexic/bulimic. i am now in a treatment center. and it is hellping me(even though i dont want it to). i think if you are willing to accept treatment that some sort of program would help you out a lot in the long run. i really hope you talk to your mom and ask her to look for a good treatment center near you.

[Charlotte93]

I understand, but you probably don't want to hear that right now. But i know how you feel and i wish i could help, i know how hard it is to let people in and to get help when noone seems to want to help

[Veto]

Hey I know your like wtf nobody understands but ya I do right now I have just cut and earlier I took a hot pan and accidental droped it on my hand so that I might just get some relief ok it's all screwed up therapist are crap Thay have never helped me

[Chris25]

The first step of getting over an addiction or problem of this sort is admitting that u hav a probelm and wanting to change!! Now thay u hav done that ty going a lil but furthur wihout barfing or cuttig!! Even if it is just going a few minutes later!! Any bit counts!! Ik how u feel! I Am a cutter and i used to be anorexic.. Ur theripist is obviously an asshole who doesnt deserve his/her job so dont listen to them thinkin ur crazy!! Ik mostly how u feel and ik for a fact that those urges and down feelings rnt from being crazy!! Plz try to stop! I bieleve in u!! Message me if u wanna talk bout anything!

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im in the exact same situation as you right naio,and it sux! But I know hopefully things will get better. If you dont like your therapist you could always try and get a new one? Things take time,and sometimes the bad days are longer then the good ones,but slowly it will reverse. If your prozac isnt working,maybe talk to your doctor/therapist about trying something else? What about writing or painting. Its a good way to let out painful emotions. It might seem super hard,but what if you threw away whatever you use to self harm with,and wear an elastic band?

[Geo Man]

I understand, because my life situation is hard to explain myself.

Though I have not got to cutting myself yet (I know it won't do anything else much besides just hurt), I do have thoughts about shooting myself, jumping infront of a Tube, jumping off a tall building, hanging myself off a bridge over the Thames, but have not (and probably never will) come to actual physical action.

Basically, I am very lonely because I never see my friends anymore, and I am missing a girl I fell in love with and was hoping to get with.

I know she likes me aswell, we were flirting with eachother and nearly even kissed once but got interupted by this jerk, and now I don't see her or any of my friends anymore my life feels weird beyond description.

It feel like the golden, happy days were over and (song) it was only just a dream.

I am in unbelievable pain right now, tired of my cramped house, my b**ch mother and life in general.

But I suppose I soldier on because of my belief in God, and the knowledge that all you need to do to go to heaven is believe.

Christ died on the cross for our sins, so we DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY!!! JUST BELIEVE!!!

So anyway just know that I understand what no one understanding feels like... :)

[Love.Hate]

Hey im here if you want to talk. I really do understand.

I dont think your insane, i know its so tiring. But you will get through it one day, you need to focus on positives.

:hug:

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

you're right, Prozac does suck. :/ I was on it for a year, and it did absolutely nothing but make me suffer the side effects. try not to hold it against your mom, she might be at a loss of how to comfort you, but still cares deeply. have you ever thought about finding a new therapist? maybe someone else will be a better match for you.
keep your chin up, we are all here for you on VT :) we will do all we can, I know I will :) please don't hesitate to contact me. I've been in that place--I'm there now--and I wouldn't ever wish it on anybody else.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Thanks everyone. I'll come talk to you guys if I need anything. (: