I need everyones help and opinions

[MacMilker]

this is sort of a rant, and at the same time, sort of an advice thing and altogether its a way of me hearing myself talk..or type rather*

anyways, this is going to be very sloppy, long, and all over the place.

but I assure you its sort of an interesting situation, so if you like to peer into others lives and want to know whats going on, take the time to peer into mine..

Im bad with relationships, I'm picky, I seem to hone in on the bad aspects of a relationship sometime, and to say the least, it makes things go sour, quickly

its always been easier for me to find someone online to date and get to know, just because I feel like I can mask all of the things that make me so unappealing online which has turned out to not be true making me get used to online situations, and not being able to be good in person.

I know what I dont want, rather than what I want, which I guess in essence is the same thing?

however, I seem to lead myself into a relationship thinking they have it all, or rather dont have all the bad things, and then finding out that they do, and things seem to escalate from there

before I tell you my harrowing story about my latest ''interest'' and how thats all going.. or rather, isnt going

ill get in to more about how things are

I mean I love people, but it seems like all the wrong people are coming to me, and im the one who has to hunt

and when I look for someone the realtionships have been better than if not

I mean what happened to all this "love will find you" bs that you hear, nothing has found me, ive found it, and even then it hasnt been a fuckin walk in the park, lol

anyways if you guys feel compelled to give any advice on... all of that crap up there ^
please do xD

moving on..

so I met this guy, a while back right? like I would say around april, so its been a while since we first met
we took it WAY to fast.. I broke up with him
he was completely spell bound by me, and still is... ( yeah I dont get that)

anyways, its been a while and we started talkin again like last month, you know nothing serious..
well it got sexual, and.. lol
I like sexual :yes:
but he took it like sexual/desire/love
and it went into that like that..
and he starts throwin the L word around, and how amazing I am
and Im just like.. omg not again

but then like outta the blue, he sent me a picture ( a G rated picture) lolol
and hes like gorgeous, he got a nice tan, his teeth look great, and blahblahblah daa da da

I realized I missed him.. and idk all that

so I did the smartest thing Ive ever done, I told him up front, I dont wanan date

I missed him, but not that much ;) lmao

so yeah we talked and talked and talked
hes falling harder as the days go on..

then hes like, "yeah so I fucked this girl two months ago
she hasn't had her period shes going to get a test"
not word for word lol, but thats the gist of it
blah blah blah
back and forth arguing I basically said look Im not sure I want a bf whos 16 with a kid..

it turned out she is pregnant,

i said well fine maybe we can still talk
I mean we're still not dating.. so is that wrong?

he wants to go out again.. Idk im happy with just on and off flirting and i dont know what to do
hes gonna have a kid in 6 months..
if it gets serious with me and him then ill have like a little kid theoretically right?
and if we get married, not realistic, but possible, ill have a step son.. so idk about all that

anyways basically what do you guys think?
thanks for standing through all of this

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

It sounds like you're reading too much into it.

I know how you feel (believe me!) that sometimes its nice to be in the spotlight and be adored by someone.

however, it was a good thing to tell him how you felt up front, so that you didn't accidentally lead him on.

But in my opinion, realistically, nothing should come of it. Sure you can keep in contact, but now theres a kid involved and that changes EVERYTHING.
You're young and attractive, theres no need to think about serious relationships and possible marriage with the first guy who falls for you :)

Stay safe and have fun :)

[Mynameisconner]

I've had all of that happen! I totally relate (- the pregnancy part) I don't have any advice on either choosing or letting them go! It seems detrimental either way so the only choice you do is kinda go with the flow and not really sure if you evven want to do that. You just want a solid answer to all of it!

[MacMilker]

thank you everyone
I think im just gonna help out with advice for him, and whatever
but not too involved
im so glad I said I didnt wanna date, it totally made things better to not have commitment for someone in a situation like this..
im mean im so young in compairison, really so is he
and i cant help but be flushed with so many conflicting emotions because of all this.. it just hurts me
but again thank you both <3

keep in touch xx

[Mynameisconner]

Absolutely! I hope everything turns out for the best :)

[JayJaySpiritus]

Wow. you read things like way in depth... just wierd cause i've never meet anyone that does it like me haha..

anyways. your abit young to be caring for a kid. if you were his age or more my age it would be alright. you just need to concentrate on yourself bud.
i dont think the casual flirting thing is good but alright. been in his place on the end of that story.. especially when he seems to like you that much. the 'L' word isnt something that should be thrown around in my opinion...

only thing i have to say is dont give up on love or him. if you want him in your life dont let him walk away, even if just as a friend. dont give up on love, its the one thing that hold people together.. i love my friends like no one else.. there my life & i couldnt have it without them..

but hey your life you lead it.. take this how you want. I'm an aquaruis so i have fucked up veiws about everything haha