ChaseThisLight
July 5th, 2011, 04:16 PM
hey so I'm chase :)
I'm from the UK 19 years old and I have just finished my first year of my degree program! (results on Friday wish me luck!)
There are a number of reasons why I've joined this forum, but some form of intervention has been long time coming. So here's some background on me.
I grew up in a nice family living in a nice estate with a little sister. I loved being with friends, kicking a ball around trying to skateboard. Being 8 years old was fun. So many friends no consequences.
Then you get to being 10, people learn how to manipulate others, form sects between friendship groups and become devious little shits.
You know in the one in the group of friends who people would run away from and hide from- that was me always me.
I was a clever kid and was ultimately made head boy of my primary school, which gave me something to be proud of, I hoped I would become popular have real friends. But the same group of friends who were always awful to me still acted in the same way. Until one day I started kicking my "best friend" and I had to be dragged away because I wouldn't stop.
I went from having part time friends to whom I was just a butt of their jokes, to being alienated and no one wanting to even look at me.
I began self harming at age 10.
That's the beginning of my journey, I'm not sure I want to go into more detail yet. I've joined here because I don't want to do anything stupid at this point in my life.
Like everyone one on here I found high school so so so hard. In my case high school brought things people on here may not have had to experience, however I really turned things around for myself and almost built a "castle"
My outbursts are causing that to crumble and lately I've been more suicidal than I can remember. (which really scares me)
anyway, thanks for reading, see u around
chase x
I'm from the UK 19 years old and I have just finished my first year of my degree program! (results on Friday wish me luck!)
There are a number of reasons why I've joined this forum, but some form of intervention has been long time coming. So here's some background on me.
I grew up in a nice family living in a nice estate with a little sister. I loved being with friends, kicking a ball around trying to skateboard. Being 8 years old was fun. So many friends no consequences.
Then you get to being 10, people learn how to manipulate others, form sects between friendship groups and become devious little shits.
You know in the one in the group of friends who people would run away from and hide from- that was me always me.
I was a clever kid and was ultimately made head boy of my primary school, which gave me something to be proud of, I hoped I would become popular have real friends. But the same group of friends who were always awful to me still acted in the same way. Until one day I started kicking my "best friend" and I had to be dragged away because I wouldn't stop.
I went from having part time friends to whom I was just a butt of their jokes, to being alienated and no one wanting to even look at me.
I began self harming at age 10.
That's the beginning of my journey, I'm not sure I want to go into more detail yet. I've joined here because I don't want to do anything stupid at this point in my life.
Like everyone one on here I found high school so so so hard. In my case high school brought things people on here may not have had to experience, however I really turned things around for myself and almost built a "castle"
My outbursts are causing that to crumble and lately I've been more suicidal than I can remember. (which really scares me)
anyway, thanks for reading, see u around
chase x