Please

[MadManWithaBox]

I'm just. They were right. I'm so... Disgusting. I'm so useless. I get one good thing, and I... Ruin her. So now I've listened to him. Had some bleach and vodka. Sliced my leg up. Now please, tell me what I am. What a foul, scumbag, worthless cunt I am. Then il go and leave you alone. Make her happy. Please.

[Love.Hate]

This isnt making me happy.

[MadManWithaBox]

Give it time, and I will. Il make you happy.

[sarahtheweber]

You are NOT disgusting. Trust me, I've met some disgusting men... What exactly happened??

[MadManWithaBox]

Nothing happened. Martin came. I decided things again.

[Love.Hate]

Nothing happened. Martin came. I decided things again.

I thought this would be down to Martin.

Take your meds, i know its hard.. and it makes you ill, but they really work. And Martin is going to try to destroy you.

[Amaryllis]

I don't know what this is about but listen to the girl. Fran obviously does not hate you(if this is about her) or she wouldn't be posting on every thread you write and she obviously isn't ruined. She's a strong girl, she's still here. Have more faith in her. You're not disgusting. You seem like a nice guy. in fact I'm pretty sure you are.

Don't let what anyone says get into your head(Unless it's something good).

[Iris]

sometimes you have to trust others more than you trust yourself. Everyone here will tell you that you are not any of the horrible things you say you are. Please, please believe us. You sound like a great person who's gone through so much horrors and still made it through. You are in no way a foul cunt or any of that. Right now in your life I think you need to give up your opinion of yourself, listen to all of us when we say you are a good person, and rebuild yourself based on that.

[Love.Hate]

I don't know what this is about but listen to the girl. Fran obviously does not hate you(if this is about her) or she wouldn't be posting on every thread you write and she obviously isn't ruined. She's a strong girl, she's still here. Have more faith in her. You're not disgusting. You seem like a nice guy. in fact I'm pretty sure you are.

Don't let what anyone says get into your head(Unless it's something good).

She's right.

Matt, you need to believe us. Not your dad, Michael or Martin. Us.

We all care about you silly, and want you to see the good things about yourself. <3

[Magenta]

Matt, Martin cannot get to you unless you let him. I've told you this before. You know the medication helps even if it makes you ill. No one likes to see you in this pain. You're hurting, we know, and it hurts us to see you like this and not have any power to truly stop it. However, we're here for you and I think you know that. We wouldn't respond to all your posts or try to make sure you're alright if we weren't.

Your dad and Martin? They're the bad guys here, not you. You're wonderful, Matt. Deep down, I think you know this and want to believe us. I know it's hard when it seems like everything else is pointing towards otherwise but I'll sit here and fight with you until you feel some inkling of truth in what we say.

Please believe us, Matt. :hug3:

[MadManWithaBox]

I wish believing I'm wonderful was as easy as feeling it :( I took all my meds today. And I feel bloody awful.

[Magenta]

Matt, we all have bad days. Some of us have more than others. You've pushed through so much. You can get through this too. It's good you took your meds. You feel bad now but you'll feel better in the long run. Meds can be like that. We're all here to keep you from falling. You know we are. :hug: