So.. The return.

[wavey]

Well, heres comes a short but description of how i'm feeling and why i'm feeling it.

Turns out the other day my girlfriend was told to take anti-depressants, because she felt low and tired. Nothing like depressing or anything.
She starts taking them, a week later, tells me over text she wants to kill herself and she started cutting right there while texting me. She threatens to take the whole box of Fluxoteine... I dunno how i stopped her but i did.

So, when i found out the nexxt day she cut herself quite badly on her thighs, i started myself, just using a shaving razer on my upper arm.. but i'm going to do it again, something about it made me feel good, it stopped the pain for a split moment.

I'm sad because my girlfriend has started cutting, it makes me feel like i'm the bad one here. I must of done something wrong :/ ....

Please, can somebody help me out?

[Magenta]

No, it was not your fault and you did nothing wrong. If anything, you helped her. There's so many reasons people start cutting. Don't focus on if you were a reason, be proud that you talked her down.

Fluxoteine (or Prozac usually) can cause severe depression in some people as well as suicidal thoughts and actions. Seems ironic seeing as it is an antidepressant. What she experienced was likely a very rare side effect. Usually the first week is when the side effects present themselves. I've been on Prozac.

Thing is, you've only cut once. You can stop yourself before the problem starts. I've told others and I'll tell you the same: look at any of the posts in this forum. You'll see the experiences we've had, the horrors and the addiction. Self-harm is not something you want to get started with. Yes, it stops the pain. But what about when it stops doing that? You have to cut more or deeper which leads often to terrible scars, trips to the ER and sometimes stays in the psych ward. We've all been through these things and we would never wish it upon anyone.

What your girlfriend needs to do is talk to the doctor who prescribed the Prozac right away because that was likely what caused those suicidal feelings. I know she may not want to but there's a serious risk of her actually going through with it if she keeps experiencing this. Of course, no one wants that especially if it can be prevented.

Next, although you may want to cut again, just read through some of the posts here. Seriously, hide the razor blade and any temptation and then just try to focus on something else. Something healthier. Write a poem or a journal, rip up paper, something other than cutting.

PM me if you ever need to talk. I'm always around. x

Hope this helped.

[DJZS]

YOU did nothing wrong. And if she sees you cutting or she knows you cut it just gives her an even less reason to stop. If yo dont cut there is a better chance she will stop. You need to tell her to explain to her doctor what is going on.