its getting worse

[morbidmonkey]

the urge is coming more frequently. before i didnt cut this much, now its everyday. its like i dont even have to think about it anymore, i just go whenever somebody gets me really angry...which is almost constantly.its gonna get worse over the nxt week cuz i'll be home a lot...sigh...

[Magenta]

Ella, I think you should seek some counseling. Everyday definitely means a problem. I've been there before. With a counsellor, you could be learning different, more effective ways to cope with feelings. Self-harm is only a temporary fix and often isn't as effective as we think it may be and obviously has a lot more cons than pros.

If you're turning to cutting before thinking of anything else, I think it's time to approach someone for help as this is very unhealthy. Obviously that's a very big and hard step. Do you have anyone you could go to to tell them this? I know getting help may not be all to appealing but it is your wellbeing in question.

:hug:

[morbidmonkey]

i'll try to tell someone but its difficult to talk about my feelings....when i get outta this place i won't be angry all the time. i'll talk to someone when i feel i'm ready...which is not now. the very thought of it freaks me out

[anonymous53]

Like Jojo said, try to seek help. Are there adults you can talk to? I know it's scary to talk about it to people, but at this point its getting very bad. You need to get help before it gets any worse; it can, and will get worse if you let it :(

[morbidmonkey]

i'm forcing myself to stay away from the blades....i didnt cut today so thats good. music actually helps too. and i had an epiphany when listening to music... so i think i might be good for some time...

[Magenta]

Good for you. I help myself by writing music. It doesn't matter if it's good or not, it helps me get the emotions out without using something sharp. Also, playing my guitar, I usually play until my fingers hurt so I get the pain in a different and less dangerous way.