I'm not eating, but I'm not worried...

[Alexithymia]

First of all, sorry for the number of posts I've made. I feel like shit for them. Anyway, here I go.

I've eaten maybe, oh, 500 calories in the past 48 hours. I'm barely hungry at all. I just want to throw up, even though there's nothing TO throw up. I want to just never eat again. It's so much easier, not eating. I don't know what to do; my mom is telling me to eat more. But I can't. I just can't.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Explain to your mom how you feel and maybe she'll take you your doctor. I know how you feel and it's not going to be easy to get through, but stay strong and fight it. :)

[nnnnnnnnn9999]

seek help froma medical professional before it gets out of hand or the other option would be letting it go until you have to stay in a treatment center.

[Magenta]

Mark, I'm only posting here to remind you that you can talk to me whenever. You know this isn't healthy and you know I don't want to see this get out of hand for you.

Humans need to eat. That's just how we are. If we didn't have to, we wouldn't. Talk to your mum, talk to a doctor. It's hard to see past this but try to imagine a day when you don't have to worry about eating. It seems like the worst thing possible now but when you get there, you know you'll feel better.

A healthy human is a happy human... an unhealthy one isn't. :hug3:

[Alexithymia]

Thanks. I wish I could eat and eat and eat without having to worry about gaining weight. I love food, honestly. But... I'm too messed up to do that. If I could lose weight healthily, I would. But I suppose this is my substitute for self harming. It's just a different kind...