Cruel memories...

[Chris25]

When my dad used to smoke he was always on edge.. When he smoked he drank and when he drank his frustration would build.. My and my sis would cower in fear when ever my mom went to work.. He would drag us across the rooms by our necks or hair and hit us.. Just because we were playing and messing around with legos which to him was us fighting... Went on for as long as i can remeber... Luckily he quit smoking... He was never an alcoholic but ge always drank when he smoked.. He has horible anger problems still because of the smoking urges... He doesnt hit me as much anymore.. But he switched to verbal abuse.. Call me long haired hippy, fag, gay, stupid, retarded and every name he can think of... His main way to make me hurt is to threaten to take my phone away.... May sound stupid to any1 else but my fone to me is my only other way to cope other than cutting... The memories come bak every time my dad hits me and i always end up crying and runnig away... My mom finaly saw what my dad did one day while they came home drunk... I tokd her everyhing and she told me that she would try and talk to him... That was a year ago and sge still hasnt done shit.... How do i get him to stop and get over these memories?:'(( plz help.. I cant get bak to cutting... Hell broke loose when he found out i was cuttig again...

[PoseidonX43]

you need to tell someone tell your mom, if u need me feel free to vm me!

:hug:

[1_21Guns]

Depending where you live, there are call lines you can call to recieve help.
You and your sister cower in fear, and I don't have much doubt that your mother also fears him when he's like this. Nobody wants to approach someone who is angry, you mother may well have spoken to him, and got the same treatment you two do. My mother left my father in the end for the way he behaved, but that takes a lot.
Confide in a teacher, an adult you trust. People can help him. The likelihood is he was abused as a youngster too, which is why he lashes out on you. It's important to remember that these things do have cause, and it's not always directly the persons fault. I wish I knew that when I was living there.
Good luck hun, stay strong, you know where I am if you need to talk :hug3:

[DJZS]

I posted a reply on your other post, but i think we should talk sometime. Maybe we can talk on the phone? I can help you with the cutting and i can help you with dealing with your dad.

[Chris25]

He was abused when he was younger... Alot worse than i was.. So i really shouldnt be whinning bout my problems... I did tell my mom and she said she would try and talk to him but idk if she has andif she did it sure didnt help....
Zack: i posted on my other thread in reply

[MadManWithaBox]

You need to call someone. Now. If you're scared, everyone else is scared.

[morbidmonkey]

u should definitely try to get him some help...but idk how ur gonna do that...maybe if u call someone about his...situation then he could get help. if he stops then u wont have the memories anymore. and this is kinda of the thread topic but dont pass on the chain like ur father did...really the world doesnt need more abuse....

[Amaryllis]

I know it might not be possible to get him help because I mean... My mom would just kill me and kill herself if I told her to get help but you don't have to be a victim anymore. I'm not gonna say the past is past because it's easier said than done and if I hold on to the past, I can't expect you to just let it go. No one can. But you're strong, you survived. You're better than your dad and you're gonna be better than him if you ever choose to have kids.

Don't let him win. You're not a long haired hippy, a fag, gay or anything he ever said you were. He steps on your head so he can get a little higher. He tears you down so he doesn't have to see how broken he is. You might not be able to help him but you can help you.

I hate my dad. I know hate's a strong word and he's my dad and he brought me into this world but blabla not about me. The point is, I turned out(relatively) okay. Sort of. Maybe I'm not such a good example ;) But hey, PM me, leave a comment, lament, whatever you wanna do or you think'll help or just talk to me. You can rant all you want. I'm not gonna judge you or think you talk too much(In fact, I talk too much. As you can see from my post)

Your mom loves your dad. She doesn't wanna get on his bad side. If you loved someone who cut too, what would you do? Not that I'm saying your dad cuts but it's similar. Anyway, leave me a message, okay? :)

Faith And Trust

[Chris25]

Idk how to get im help... If i tell any1 or even try to he will just get angry again and u kno what happens... Ive talked to my mom bout him going to get help but she says that will make him worse.... Idk what 2 do.. Anything i try to do he just blows up on me and grounds me and yells or worse.... Ive tried talking to him but he just wont accept me... Ty for trying tho.. And i kno that i am all of that because for 1 i am mainly gay and also i hav very long hair:/

[Amaryllis]

There's nothing wrong with being gay. I think all the prejudice against the LGBT community is just ridiculous. Gay isn't all you are. Its like how Christians fight with Catholics. Or calling this group of people Blue because that's their favourite colour and this group Green, Yellow, Pink, it's ridiculous. Anyway, I'm babbling.

You have long hair. Lots of guys have long hair. I think guys with long hair are cute. Girls have short hair. Does that mean their men? We wear pants. Does that mean we're "unlady-like"?

You might not be able to help him but you can help you. Soon, you're gonna be out of his house then you're free, you're independant. For now, you just gotta do your best to survive. And hopefully, when it's all over, you'll be able to leave the past in the past. Don't let him tear you down. He'll get to you but don't let him get to you TOO much. Try your best. Stay strong. We're here if you need us.

[DoctorNewbie]

Call a child help line. Best option, in my opinion.

[MadManWithaBox]

You say you can't call someone. But if you don't, it won't stop, it'll just get worse. And it might end much worse. You have to tell someone. I can't gurantee what'll happen if you do, but you'll be kept safe, I can promise that. Don't be an idiot like I was and wait till it's almost too late.

[jonmark]

Abandoned; the way I live life,
far apart from your memories.
Despite hard to avoid, still I strive,
when heart recalls and mind parries.

Too lengthy, these moments span
when my breaths are hard to revive.
Moments don't pass and memories remain,
and it feels very hard to survive.

No hideaway for me apart from my past,
but to confine in the moments of suffocation,
---waiting for my time to last.
because; for this pain, there's no alleviation.

Memories---moments of joys, cherished.
Loneliness is pre-occupied,when retrieved.
---What if my reminiscences embodies!
----------------cruel memories.