I feel like I did something wrong.

[Hershey's Kisses]

I have two older bros and parents and two cats . I feel like I'm the problem . I'm so shy And I have no friends and I have Been like this since kindergarten . . My family struggles so much with finances and even feeding us and here I am and my oldest brother with all of the problems .

My mother always says I make her blood pressure go dangerously high and i just think ," why are my oldest bro and I the problem ?" I feel unwanted .

Like maybe if I had never been born my parents would actually have some money to enjoy themselves and to live and my mom wouldnt be so stressed out with me and my brother . I really feel that I am the burden . My mom says she doesn't like who I'm becoming and to be honest, I don't like myself .

I just feel like one of two messed up children and my other bro is just the happy-go lucky child who doesn't bring so much stress to my mom . She says that just having to deal with me makes her blood pressure rise extremely high . That was a "rant" I guess .

[northskater110]

You aren't the problem, let's settle that point first. Many families are going through financial hardshops at this point in time, and it puts a large amount of stress on the parents. Try to be as supportive of your parents as possible. They are doing the
ir hardest to have you fed and such, and it is always nice to just appreciate people. As to your friend issue, go out more. Be more social. I found that when I went out places with one friend, I started to grow a core of friends that I can always rely on. Keep your chin up, and don't let this get you down man.

[Magenta]

Every kid has that point in their life where they think they were a mistake or the problem. I know I went through it especially when my parents divorced.

First off, you can't be at fault for your problems. They are what they are. As long as you're trying your best to deal with them, you can't be asked for much more.

I think your mum is just stressed. Parents are human too. They say things in frustration, anger or sadness just like anyone else. She may not have realized how what she said affected you. Don't let it drag you down.

In the end, your mum loves you. Don't worry about it too much. All families go through their own issues and they pull through.

Hope this helped. :hug:

[Hershey's Kisses]

Thanks . I can see how my mom Is so stressed out, and I really shouldn't take it so personally . And yes you're right , it's not my fault I have sone of the problems I do . :)

[Derek951]

It might just be your mom's way of blowing off steam, which can suck if you feel you're the object of her venting. But I'm sure it's just the stress of everything, not you in particular.