Help

[schrei jess]

For some reason I feel like cutting again, but I dont know why. Everything is going great, my new medicene is working great, people are telling me they can see the difference and I feel it too. But for some reason I want to fuck it up and hurt myself. I cant think of a reason why I would want to screw up the one thing that is finally going right in my life. The only thing that I can come up with is that if I lose the depression and cutting addiction that maybe I wont be me anymore, or that I dont know how to live without it after having it for so long. I need someone to help me through this, I cant screw this up now, Ill disappoint everyone and most of all myself.

[Bobby]

You'll still be you, just without the emotional burden. That cut doesn't just hurt you, but it's like putting a cut in everyone around you's wrists, everyone who cares for you.

Do it for your family, for your friends, for VT. Don't give in.

[krazy_katie]

someone, i don't remember who, told me once that i was letting my past, my present, and my problems define me. at first i was really pissed, like who are you to tell me that what has happend to me doesn't matter. it took me a while to realize that they weren't minimizing what i had gone through, but instead they were telling me that i now had the chance to redefine who i was or who i wanted to be now. so i did. i started becoming more social, even though i hated talking to people. i basically just started to do things i had never done before to get my mind off of what i used to be and what i wanted to do (cut). it took a while, at least a couple of weeks, before i realized that i was thinking less about wanting to cut because i was so concentrated on making myself into a new or a more different person.
so maybe that is something you can try. i don't know. and sorry if none of this helped.

[thesphinx]

Im glad your feeling better! i know what you mean.
i cant amagine myself without the depression anymore..
and it sucks.
it really gives me hope that your feeling better, because maybe i can feel beetter to then :)
but please dont cut you will learn to live without it.